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I am so annoyed with my mom. every single time i ask her to let me schedule my drivers appointment, she never lets me. its always "oh dont bother me with this now". if my sister has her license, there is no reason in hell she should prevent me from getting mine. and then she complains when she has to take me places? its not like i ask her for anything else. just let me do this and i'll never talk to you again.
the end.
i cant stand you.
i was thinking about last year. it's almost like im suprised its over. i dont know why. like all my old buddies....jerm, christa, ev, and kelly....i guess im still friends with them, but i miss how it used to be sometimes. i miss last year. i miss guys and dolls. i might nights of "cheese". i miss just going to starbucks for stupid reasons. i miss flamingoing people. i miss writing stupid poems about pancakes and laughing forever about it. i miss our lunch table. i miss cramming for western civ. i miss bitching about crazy K. i miss having friends that aren't leaving me behind.
today i noticed that when i go to most of my classes, i just sit. and dont talk to anyone. mainly because i can't stand the people around me. i would love to have one class that i enjoyed. that i looked foward to going to. that i didnt mind actually listening to the teacher talk. and when kirk says "okay kids, get with ur partners.." i always find myself saying "fuck it, im leaving."
and then i tell kirk im leaving and go down to the band room.
most kids can't wait for their senior year. i am not one of them. what am i going to do?
i could always focus on my school work.
then i realized...that doesnt make me happy. that usually just pisses me off more knowing that the state makes it sound like my generation won't make a semi-decent living without learning things like how sedimentary rock forms.
sorry buddy, i'd rather read an interesting book of my choice. rock free, for that matter. because what if we all died tomorrow? would u want to spend the majority of your time on stupid math problems that you'll never find handy? cuz i know for sure as hell i wouldn't.
then again, maybe i just need to grow up.
the end.
i cant stand you.
i was thinking about last year. it's almost like im suprised its over. i dont know why. like all my old buddies....jerm, christa, ev, and kelly....i guess im still friends with them, but i miss how it used to be sometimes. i miss last year. i miss guys and dolls. i might nights of "cheese". i miss just going to starbucks for stupid reasons. i miss flamingoing people. i miss writing stupid poems about pancakes and laughing forever about it. i miss our lunch table. i miss cramming for western civ. i miss bitching about crazy K. i miss having friends that aren't leaving me behind.
today i noticed that when i go to most of my classes, i just sit. and dont talk to anyone. mainly because i can't stand the people around me. i would love to have one class that i enjoyed. that i looked foward to going to. that i didnt mind actually listening to the teacher talk. and when kirk says "okay kids, get with ur partners.." i always find myself saying "fuck it, im leaving."
and then i tell kirk im leaving and go down to the band room.
most kids can't wait for their senior year. i am not one of them. what am i going to do?
i could always focus on my school work.
then i realized...that doesnt make me happy. that usually just pisses me off more knowing that the state makes it sound like my generation won't make a semi-decent living without learning things like how sedimentary rock forms.
sorry buddy, i'd rather read an interesting book of my choice. rock free, for that matter. because what if we all died tomorrow? would u want to spend the majority of your time on stupid math problems that you'll never find handy? cuz i know for sure as hell i wouldn't.
then again, maybe i just need to grow up.