anyway
yeah so i havent been in the best mood lately. i guess what the real problem has been is that there isn't any really cool fun stuff thats been happening in my life lately. everything seems to be of either the overtly dramatic sort that isnt very fun to handle, or just moving around stuff mentally or physically trying to make things fit a bit more smoothly in the giant block puzzle that is my life. its been a strange ordeal, i still dont really know what to make of it all.
all i know is that im doing the same old patterns that ive always done, and yet for some reason i dont feel comfortable doing them anymore. they are not providing my mind with a sense of relief that they used to. i guess it is time to adapt, and adapt i must. otherwise i will perish, that is the way of things.
i just wish it was a bit easier to get readjusted, this shift has been particularly troublesome. i hope it gets easier with time and maturity. once u think you have it all figured out, life shows you that you essentially know nothing. and then you must rebuild. so really, is there anything to build at all? i guess not. but im still young enough that i will attempt to try. if the blocks fall again so be it, that is also the way of things.
anyway....
all i know is that im doing the same old patterns that ive always done, and yet for some reason i dont feel comfortable doing them anymore. they are not providing my mind with a sense of relief that they used to. i guess it is time to adapt, and adapt i must. otherwise i will perish, that is the way of things.
i just wish it was a bit easier to get readjusted, this shift has been particularly troublesome. i hope it gets easier with time and maturity. once u think you have it all figured out, life shows you that you essentially know nothing. and then you must rebuild. so really, is there anything to build at all? i guess not. but im still young enough that i will attempt to try. if the blocks fall again so be it, that is also the way of things.
anyway....