guessssss whaaat iiii diiiiidd...
so...i got to see sara B live!!!!! (at jingle jam)
She was amazing..and it really made me so happy to be able to see her. She sang bottle it up, fairy tale.. sang Silent Night acappella and then used an electric ukelele!! to do a cover of a Counting Crows song (that i didnt' know).Thanks to Nick and Lan for buying me my ticket and going with me even though it was my idea:)
in other news.. i got a new tattoo. lan and i are officially besties (ha). she got hers on her right arm.. and i got mine on the top of my foot. they are different but the theme is the same (Less than three). I'll post some pics when lan gives me my camara my christmas present today sometime.
The rest of this post comes with a Warning: Mushy
Sometimes i just have to take a minute and marvel at my luck.
i mean.. lets face it.. i'm not the prettiest of people and have been screwed over on a lot of areas my mexican butt, big nose, beady eyes my poor eyes sight, lack of navigational common sense, bad hearing, tendancy to ...be a bitch take control of situations....
but Nick loves me. inspite of all that.
I feel it when he holds me, the way he looks at me, says my name (pooks), plays with my hair..
the way he jokes around meanly .. tells me to get in the kitchen and make him a sandwich.. talks like a hick (baby i luv you soo much.. imma take you to the burger king tonight)..
but at the end of the day... god. i love him so much. so god damn much. its kinda scary.
i told myself that i woudl never.. ever.. let myself become vulnerable like that again. never give myself to someone, never fully trust.. never... fall in love... again.
but... in the words of alanis.. 'I had no choice but to hear you. You stated your case time and again, I thought about it. You treat me like Im a princess Im not used to liking that. You ask how my day was.
You've already won me over in spite of me. Dont be alarmed if I fall head over feet. Dont be surprised if I love you for all that you are. I couldnt help it. Its all your fault.
Your love is think and it swallowed me whole. Youre so much braver than I gave you credit for. Thats not lip service
You are the bearer of unconditional things, You held your breath and the door for me.
Thanks for your patience. Youre the best listener that Ive ever met. Youre my best friend, Best friend with benefits..What took me so long?
I am aware now.'
i'm so lucky to have found him. inspite of all my flaws.. and my bad luck.. i'm so grateful to have him.. even though he is indecisive, suffers from low self esteem, can be a push over... i love him.
he still, after a year, makes my heart beat fast and gives me butterflies in my stomach. among other things :P
End mushy.
This has been a crazy year.. and so much has changed.
lan moved out
i found nick
my brother decided to go to umkc (this fall)
kristen was dumb
nick moved in with kristen
i'm reading the twilight series
we lost meaghan
i lost 20 lbs..
gained back 10 lbs..
bob found dennis..
i lost bob
i finished up my last bit of course work
piano is the bane of my existance
i got a new tattoo
saw sara b live!
finished my work study..
so much more. so much.. i wish i could remember it all.
i hope i get around to posting again soon before the new year.
She was amazing..and it really made me so happy to be able to see her. She sang bottle it up, fairy tale.. sang Silent Night acappella and then used an electric ukelele!! to do a cover of a Counting Crows song (that i didnt' know).Thanks to Nick and Lan for buying me my ticket and going with me even though it was my idea:)
in other news.. i got a new tattoo. lan and i are officially besties (ha). she got hers on her right arm.. and i got mine on the top of my foot. they are different but the theme is the same (Less than three). I'll post some pics when lan gives me my camara my christmas present today sometime.
The rest of this post comes with a Warning: Mushy
Sometimes i just have to take a minute and marvel at my luck.
i mean.. lets face it.. i'm not the prettiest of people and have been screwed over on a lot of areas my mexican butt, big nose, beady eyes my poor eyes sight, lack of navigational common sense, bad hearing, tendancy to ...be a bitch take control of situations....
but Nick loves me. inspite of all that.
I feel it when he holds me, the way he looks at me, says my name (pooks), plays with my hair..
the way he jokes around meanly .. tells me to get in the kitchen and make him a sandwich.. talks like a hick (baby i luv you soo much.. imma take you to the burger king tonight)..
but at the end of the day... god. i love him so much. so god damn much. its kinda scary.
i told myself that i woudl never.. ever.. let myself become vulnerable like that again. never give myself to someone, never fully trust.. never... fall in love... again.
but... in the words of alanis.. 'I had no choice but to hear you. You stated your case time and again, I thought about it. You treat me like Im a princess Im not used to liking that. You ask how my day was.
You've already won me over in spite of me. Dont be alarmed if I fall head over feet. Dont be surprised if I love you for all that you are. I couldnt help it. Its all your fault.
Your love is think and it swallowed me whole. Youre so much braver than I gave you credit for. Thats not lip service
You are the bearer of unconditional things, You held your breath and the door for me.
Thanks for your patience. Youre the best listener that Ive ever met. Youre my best friend, Best friend with benefits..What took me so long?
I am aware now.'
i'm so lucky to have found him. inspite of all my flaws.. and my bad luck.. i'm so grateful to have him.. even though he is indecisive, suffers from low self esteem, can be a push over... i love him.
he still, after a year, makes my heart beat fast and gives me butterflies in my stomach. among other things :P
End mushy.
This has been a crazy year.. and so much has changed.
lan moved out
i found nick
my brother decided to go to umkc (this fall)
kristen was dumb
nick moved in with kristen
i'm reading the twilight series
we lost meaghan
i lost 20 lbs..
gained back 10 lbs..
bob found dennis..
i lost bob
i finished up my last bit of course work
piano is the bane of my existance
i got a new tattoo
saw sara b live!
finished my work study..
so much more. so much.. i wish i could remember it all.
i hope i get around to posting again soon before the new year.