[25] To Love or To Be Loved
Monday, 27 September 2010
‘Go, touch her, go!’ a whisper came in my dream.
Soon I felt a hand in my breast. Was it a lucid dream? I tried to wake myself up.
‘Pab?’ I rubbed my eyes, ‘What time is it?’
He quickly sat up and kneeled beside me.
‘Sorry, Liz, T asked me to…’
‘It’s ok,’ I sat up, ‘Isn’t it Monday today?’
He nodded and helped me get dressed.
‘Guys,’ Theo let out a laugh and took away the quilt, ‘These guys are all naked. You have any idea what happened last night?’
Danny woke up after me. He struggled to get up and put his clothes on.
Ant tossed him his pants and passed me a cup of hot chocolate.
‘Nothing happened last night,’ Danny finally spoke, with no expression on his face.
‘How about Maggie, Danny?’ Theo put his hands around Danny’s neck, his face close to his, ‘You’re Maggie’s man, aren’t you?’
‘Come off it, he’s nobody’s man!’ Maggie retorted and her high-pitched voice woke Nathan. She sat down next to me and drank her cappuccino.
‘Edward? What is this little boy doing here?’ Theo climbed on Ed and slapped his cheeks.
‘Boy, this is not a playground,’ Theo said teasingly.
‘What was it like last night?’ Al looked at me in the eye.
‘Uh-oh! Someone’s jealous,’ Theo whistled, got off the bed and walked into the kitchen.
‘What was it like?’ Al repeated.
I didn’t know how to reply, or what to reply. I was thinking how love was like a war. I wanted to quit, but I didn’t know how to.
I gave him a kiss on the lips instead. I held up his hand and let him feel my heartbeat. I was calm, warm and grateful. I hoped he felt it.
‘Liz?’ Theo shouted from the kitchen.
‘Yeah?’
‘Are you coming to Aaron’s birthday party?’
‘Aaron? Who’s Aaron?’
‘Funny, ha! It’s this Friday, everyone.’
‘Are you gonna perform a live sex show?’
‘Yeah, I’d go if you do.’
‘Me too. It’s a brilliant idea!’
‘Well then, I guess that can be arranged.’
Al smiled and I knew he meant it. I hoped love was calm, warm and grateful.
xoxo
‘Go, touch her, go!’ a whisper came in my dream.
Soon I felt a hand in my breast. Was it a lucid dream? I tried to wake myself up.
‘Pab?’ I rubbed my eyes, ‘What time is it?’
He quickly sat up and kneeled beside me.
‘Sorry, Liz, T asked me to…’
‘It’s ok,’ I sat up, ‘Isn’t it Monday today?’
He nodded and helped me get dressed.
‘Guys,’ Theo let out a laugh and took away the quilt, ‘These guys are all naked. You have any idea what happened last night?’
Danny woke up after me. He struggled to get up and put his clothes on.
Ant tossed him his pants and passed me a cup of hot chocolate.
‘Nothing happened last night,’ Danny finally spoke, with no expression on his face.
‘How about Maggie, Danny?’ Theo put his hands around Danny’s neck, his face close to his, ‘You’re Maggie’s man, aren’t you?’
‘Come off it, he’s nobody’s man!’ Maggie retorted and her high-pitched voice woke Nathan. She sat down next to me and drank her cappuccino.
‘Edward? What is this little boy doing here?’ Theo climbed on Ed and slapped his cheeks.
‘Boy, this is not a playground,’ Theo said teasingly.
‘What was it like last night?’ Al looked at me in the eye.
‘Uh-oh! Someone’s jealous,’ Theo whistled, got off the bed and walked into the kitchen.
‘What was it like?’ Al repeated.
I didn’t know how to reply, or what to reply. I was thinking how love was like a war. I wanted to quit, but I didn’t know how to.
I gave him a kiss on the lips instead. I held up his hand and let him feel my heartbeat. I was calm, warm and grateful. I hoped he felt it.
‘Liz?’ Theo shouted from the kitchen.
‘Yeah?’
‘Are you coming to Aaron’s birthday party?’
‘Aaron? Who’s Aaron?’
‘Funny, ha! It’s this Friday, everyone.’
‘Are you gonna perform a live sex show?’
‘Yeah, I’d go if you do.’
‘Me too. It’s a brilliant idea!’
‘Well then, I guess that can be arranged.’
Al smiled and I knew he meant it. I hoped love was calm, warm and grateful.
xoxo