you said "it's been awhile"

Aug 15, 2006 22:17

and it has.

well this summer took me places. let's see, there was that random night where i met up with this guy i dated in high school, which led to us dating all summer. which means i'm kind of in love but going back to school.

which means i'm excited. because this is new. i am living by myself and look forward to it whilst secretly being afraid of being lonely. which means i'll bring the scrapbook, which means i will never get to it. i will watch Flavor of Love until i'm sick of ass-grabbing which means i'm not getting any of my own. hah. just kidding.

which means i painted my nails but chipped off the ends, which equals anxiety. i'm kind of stressed. i feel outside of my body. which means i'm a little dramatic but only of late, because i've been different which means this whole love thing has gone to my head and i didn't even mean for it too.

so here it is: i'm kind of sad, kind of glad, maybe a little mad even. anything else rhyme? rad? yeah i'm that, somewhere, although i might have packed it away underneath the coffee pot and power cord. so here is where you insert one of those cyber sighs.

summer was fun. i felt useless at my job, and i even managed to almost kill my boss' cat, and crash the computer system at a really bad time at work. i mowed the yard maybe twice. i feel that disappointment mostly in my arms. i went on work-out sprees at 6 in the morning but that didn't "work out" (i'm so stinkin' punny!) so oh well. i feel that disappointment in my legs.

i never really saw my little church buddies that use to be my life. i feel that disappointment in my chest. right there in the carotid artery.

i finished two books. i started 9. maybe 10 if you count the bible i was going to pick back up. i feel that disappointment in my head.

I painted my room and now I feel like I can do something.

on a better note, i love my boyfriend and my family, i'm excited about my LU neighbor, i can't wait to see Zab, i can't wait for PKS and wednesday nights with my Woodbine family. i can't wait to laugh and laugh and go out to coffee late at night. i can't wait to see jay and amanda and drink beer and talk about vienna. i can't wait to show you out there my scrapbook. i'm excited about lipscomb. i'm nervous too. I don’t want last semester, I don’t want to expect anything. I’m dying for sanctuary. I can’t wait for quiet time, and then loud time and dinner at 6. ok now I’m ready.
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