would it make any difference if i wasnt late?

[elsewhere_eyes]

so.
im finally home.
it feels good in a way.
its nice to see everyone again.
but in some other ways,
it sucks.
its sorta harsh coming back into reality.
it was so much fun for the past week.
and now im back to the full time job.
sorta dissapointing.

i've also learned a little bit about myself,
the things i seem to be able to get, i cant keep.
and the things i can keep, i can never seem to get.
its weird.
but it makes sense sort of.
i don't understand how i can do something in about a week,
and in any other situation, i could be happy with it.
but it was only there and not here.
but when i come home, i cant seem to make anything work.
ahh.
depressing.
i am way tired.
and i have a hockey game.
lame.