Spring or not to Spring?
This week has been all over the place. In really the best and the worst of ways. I feel like writing but I am so tired and sore that I am afraid it will come out melancholy and depressing. I can't decide.
That is the theme in my... well my life, honestly. I can't decide. I can't decide whether or not to move, if I want to quit my job tomorrow or wait until I know I have another job to put in my notice. Do I want to spend some of my money on me, get my hair dyed? See a movie? Buy a cd off itunes? Do I want to save it for the bill collectors that are surely busting down my door right now? Maybe I should buy a new pillow, I haven't been sleeping well.
It is Singles Awareness Day, (SAD for short) and I thought for a minute that someone was going to send me flowers. I was wrong. Now I get a presentless SAD. Lame. The house is quiet and soon I can start the long process of getting ready for work. I kind of want to go and buy a bunch of flowers just daisies or something for the girls at work who don't have dates. Maybe I'll just bring candy and crappy little kid Valentines instead.
Yesterday was such a good day, I worked hard, very hard. First out in the yard hauling junk and repairing damage, ripping down fence and chicken coops and hauling old tires, and then at work in the bar. The stars are aligning. Our house was damaged in a storm, which may mean that insurance will come and fix it, which would be amazing. I got my IRS check, I am getting a truly amazing deal on a great camera so that I can use it in my photography classes...things were so good. Til my manager ruined my good mood. I'm trying to get over it, slowly and with lots of water since I'm out of coffee.
This morning the change in weather from 50's and gorgeously sunny to 30 and freezing rain gave me a killer headache. Treated with entirely too many drugs, I am now functional, albeit grumpy. Today will be long and filled with cute couples coming out for their favorite food. They will bitch when we run out of rolls. I am certain. I will cheat and put bread in the potato oven. It will all work out, and hopefully I'll make lots and lots of money. I could use a 200.00 day.
I am really excited about taking a formal step in the direction of photography. I have always loved it, and I take nice pictures. I really do. So now I'm getting a decent camera and taking classes and learning to develope film. I'm giddy over it. I feel creative and ballsy and I want to get out there and take some pictures and see what happens. I pick up my camera in Indiana on Tuesday, and I get to hang out with my brother, sister-by-common-law and his awesome roommates. Always a good time.
Alright, enough rambling, time to start the day. My coffee is done and the world will not wait forever.
That is the theme in my... well my life, honestly. I can't decide. I can't decide whether or not to move, if I want to quit my job tomorrow or wait until I know I have another job to put in my notice. Do I want to spend some of my money on me, get my hair dyed? See a movie? Buy a cd off itunes? Do I want to save it for the bill collectors that are surely busting down my door right now? Maybe I should buy a new pillow, I haven't been sleeping well.
It is Singles Awareness Day, (SAD for short) and I thought for a minute that someone was going to send me flowers. I was wrong. Now I get a presentless SAD. Lame. The house is quiet and soon I can start the long process of getting ready for work. I kind of want to go and buy a bunch of flowers just daisies or something for the girls at work who don't have dates. Maybe I'll just bring candy and crappy little kid Valentines instead.
Yesterday was such a good day, I worked hard, very hard. First out in the yard hauling junk and repairing damage, ripping down fence and chicken coops and hauling old tires, and then at work in the bar. The stars are aligning. Our house was damaged in a storm, which may mean that insurance will come and fix it, which would be amazing. I got my IRS check, I am getting a truly amazing deal on a great camera so that I can use it in my photography classes...things were so good. Til my manager ruined my good mood. I'm trying to get over it, slowly and with lots of water since I'm out of coffee.
This morning the change in weather from 50's and gorgeously sunny to 30 and freezing rain gave me a killer headache. Treated with entirely too many drugs, I am now functional, albeit grumpy. Today will be long and filled with cute couples coming out for their favorite food. They will bitch when we run out of rolls. I am certain. I will cheat and put bread in the potato oven. It will all work out, and hopefully I'll make lots and lots of money. I could use a 200.00 day.
I am really excited about taking a formal step in the direction of photography. I have always loved it, and I take nice pictures. I really do. So now I'm getting a decent camera and taking classes and learning to develope film. I'm giddy over it. I feel creative and ballsy and I want to get out there and take some pictures and see what happens. I pick up my camera in Indiana on Tuesday, and I get to hang out with my brother, sister-by-common-law and his awesome roommates. Always a good time.
Alright, enough rambling, time to start the day. My coffee is done and the world will not wait forever.