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[elsaanna]

I lie here
Compressed between ice and your soul
Is it the shadows on your chin, brash, cruel on my soft skin?
The harsh words that escape with no regret of my feelings
The silent curves of my body that you caress
Perhaps the flashes of past midnight black and white television
It must be - it has to be something because I lie here unconnected
This infamy, ecstasy that we ought to feel
Barren like my womb
Incapable of retaining life
So I lie here
I count the tiles that line your broken jade ceiling
Touch these lust filled sheets - I weep

With eyes so dark so cerulean my body boils
Save for a cold dark dampness that I fear will never retreat
It’s a war inside me
Between me
It’s of me, my conscious, and my God
I plea, for I wish to reconcile this purposeful loss of my innocence
That infamy, ecstasy that I thought I felt
While you caressed my silent curves
All for a feeling I still find unachievable
I retreat to my dreams
My solitude of false lies
I lay here and I smile your body on me
I think, I loose myself with my words