Growth
just went through some old, old entries here in hopes of finding spiritual encouragement and experience, after having skipped service today.
i did find a couple, which spoke of the fluid beauty of shalom and love lavished upon me. i also have to remember that mountaintop experiences occur when one is younger in faith and needed all these encounters to strengthen a fledging relationship with Him. i'm not sure where i stand now.
think i blog in spurts - either a lot at one shot or not at all.
i no longer cringe at angsty entries about life and friendship and God. i have a deeper understanding of 'provision' and other concepts that just rolled off my tongue (or in this case, fingers) in the past. mainly because that's what i have to do now, being a self-sustaining, working adult. unlike the people on the FB page Humans of New York, i had a structure and my daily basic needs met for me to explore spirituality and 'emo' about anything and everything.
i'm sure when i'm 40 i'll look back and this and guffaw/cringe at my immaturity in thinking that i understand, or the pretentiousness in these words. but that's for later