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First time at ArtScience Museum for non-work purposes - was pretty excited about it since last night. there is happiness in anticipation and appreciating the little things in life. one day when you look back, you'll find that the little things were the big things.
i'm thankful that because i'm un-married, i'm in a way "shielded" from the 咄咄逼人pressures of the high standard of living here, not having to get into debt for a HDB flat, having and raising a child (or children!). i see kindergarten kids often and while cute, guileless mini-humans with those innocent eyes and open, trusting faces make me smile, i stand by my viewpoint that "they're cute only when they're not yours".
after all, what do i know about the sleepless nights and night feeds, screaming toddlers, milk spills, and all? without the benefit of being raised in a loving, functional home, i don't have any confidence of being able to build one, and raise God-fearing kids and maintain a loving relationship with a spouse. i could work on the last one if i do end up with someone in future, but the first two... that part of me hasn't changed. or maybe i just haven't met someone who can change my standpoint.
so back to artscience museum. we checked out the annie leibovitz exhibition with a crowd. =\ flitted through the curated photos of hollywood celebrities, pregnancy (or otherwise) nudes, and landscapes... i've realised that i much prefer history and cultural exhibitions with lengthy captions that teach me so, so much. being immersed in an era, the way of life, the joys and sadness of the people who lived then.. yeah. but it was free admission so i'm not complaining.
it was also a joy to be able to take amazing photos with my new phone - i would use to try to capture things that moved my heart (eg. sunsets) in the past then get disappointed by how the photos taken by my iPhone 4S barely did justice to the landscape etc. now it will. (=
had kfc cos of the $4.90 two piece chicken, mango sjora and mashed potato deal. won't be eating fried chicken for a long time to come. watched national day parade with the family.. i got bored after awhile and ended up playing with my phone listening to the parade and accompanying dad who was watching it.
they say tv isn't a good family-bonding event.. i beg to differ. we didn't talk much but you just feel a connection. the patriotic songs gave me the chills in a good way, and flashbacks. i teared, and for all our shortcomings, i was proud of our nation. forty-nine years as an island that barely had resources.
contentment is great gain, that i've learnt. even though the way i've spent my day was really simple and perhaps mundane to people, i enjoyed it. i felt fulfilled. that matters.
praying about a possible opportunity to do something outside of work. my main concern is whether my health and day job will suffer. i'll be praying about it, then i remember that shouldn't my main priority be seeking God purely to know Him? after all, our work returns to dust and what we have with God is eternal.
i've never, ever had any interest in korean dramas, but the storyline for Oh Ja Ryong Is Coming had me watch it on TV sometimes, and now i'm watching one or two episodes online.
it's good to reach out to old friends again.. slept late last night because i was having a whatsapp conversation with A.. came down with the flu earlier this week and forced myself to rest.
some other things i've been up to:
listening to a teaching session on sermon on the mount
attending the st andrew's cathedral talk on keeping faith till the end
swimming, which has stopped for a few weeks