Saturday
Taking photos are a good way to dwell on the happy parts in life, and choosing to post them on social media (over random emo quotes) amplifies the positive. Here are a few:
Tried the famous claypot laksa at work - though it was average and i didn't think it was a big deal. Dad bought liu sha bao from the bakery for me for breakfast today. felt very loved. :) Parental love is far, far greater than companionship with friends. Having the energy to keep and hang laundry. Cleaning up a document. Rested in bed for two hours without falling asleep. Having ramen and finally trying the green tea coke. As i slurped up the warm broth with free beansprouts, eggs and pork, it inexplicably felt like life was okay again. Like everything was okay and my worries, fears, insecurities, helplessness and anger had vanished into thin air.Really thankful for that. Checked out the Christmas decor in the mall nearby too. The Christmas mood is lovely.. warm and fuzzy and everything and everyone seems softer, happier and more relaxed. it's like time is standing still briefly. .
i haven't had a Starbucks toffee nut latte this year yet.. Can't bring myself to on weekdays, and today was mostly spent resting. I would like to have the Burger King breakfast again soon.. Some cheap and good hawker centre food for the past week:
1. wanton mee ($2.50!!!!)
2. stewed beef hotpot (the epic flame)
3. not-so-awesome Dover Road wanton mee from another stall
4. good beef soup for dinner
5. famous duck rice
i exercised a bit today. stationary cycling. sit-ups (2 x 20), pushups (20), plank (20 & 30). start small and slowly build up my fitness. i know it's worth it. thankful that there are many things i want/need that are already available at home. exercise mat. lots of books (which i can't bear reading because i don't like knowing that there's nothing owned to read anymore). enough clothes for most occasions. also don't really feel like buying because it's not an asset and not value for money anyway. i'd rather save to travel - enriching myself and broadening my horizon through seeing the world. happy that i still don't have a debit card to mess up my finances =) exercise wear, jeans, pants, pretty dresses, beach wear etc. external dvd drive. my new glasses that don't look as bad as i thought they did. charmant!
also have come to the point where blogging has become obsolete. i used to wonder when that day would come. i was too old to be blogging. then the need faded away without my realising it, so i can't remember the point where i'd outgrown blogging. Right now, it's more of a "i feel like it" rather than needing an outlet, to organize my thoughts and all.
despite the unhappy incidents where someone could have bad mouthed me (like A said, learn to protect yourself. 你好像被人吃了都不知道), at least i don't feel like being a nerd or not having mainstream tastes (from humour to interests to whatever) is a handicap or "wrong".