so tired...
ugh...i'm so tired! i thought breaks were supposed to re-energize you?!? i can't believe that Cleodis is dead. that's so terrible. i'm gonna miss his somethin fierse! wow...i definatally found out this weekend that my best friends at home have all been further then me!! even tesh who is in 8th grade. my jaw dropped. i guess maybe that's something to be proud of...that i haven't been too far. but then again, what is too far? yea, this weekend i was seriously thinking about my morals and ideas when it comes to sex. i guess it's something that is on my mind because it seems like everyone (ok, most of my friends...not all but most) are having sex or have been really really REALLY close to having sex. it's like they always talk about it so it's always there. sometimes i wonder if i'm missing out on something. if i'm making a deal out of something that isnt' important. then i remember the sex is sacred and it's something that God created to be experienced between me and my husband. it's for my husband and not some random that i happen to be at the same party with. now don't get me wrong, i'm not saying that my friends who do have sex are wrong...i just feel differently about it. each person has their own set of morals and their own ideas as to what is and isn't ok. for me...i'm just not about sex before marriage for myself. i was taught that ever since i was little and no matter how much i may sometimes try to change my mind about that...in the end i can't make myself because it's not who i am. *sigh* sometimes being single and almost 20 can be SO difficult!