I dont like growing up...
Today was a sad day for me. I dont know why... It happened so fast...
So, for those of you who dont know, I started my schools Gay-straight alliance. I have put so much time, money, and effort into that organization its silly.
This past semester, I stepped down as president so that I could let other people learn leadership. I was supposed to be secretary, but due to a suprise change of events, that position was filled by someone else. (not that I care, I am so glad that our new secretary is in that position, becuase she is most awesome. and I am not mad that she got it now, though at the time I was really kinda of hurt)
not the point.
But let me clear that up real fast. I am not mad that M. is our secretary. I know how this online journal stuff gets translated in the real world. I am glad that she is there.
other point.
Today I went to change the website and I saw that it was changed and the website I had made was pretty much gone. I was really hurt then. I worked on that damn thing for 12 hours on day. True, it wasnt like the best website, but it was the one I put so much time into. and it was just pretty much deleted. No one asked me if I wanted a copy, no one asked what I thought about it.
I know that this past semester I have been kinda of distant in the group, but I went through a whole hell of a lot personal drama that no one in the group knows about, and they just view me as a slacker.
and It seems clear to me, that I am not wanted/needed in the group. I mean, we founded the group so that gay people on campus could have a place to go to, and now I dont feel comfortable around the group.
But I graduate in December and I will no longer be at SEMO. (thank god) and I shouldnt care about a silly group, but when its something that is the highlight of your college career, it hurts to have it taken away? thats not the right pharse.. It hurts to have it loose value? I dont know what feels I am feeling here...
But yeah. going to go find a ride to work.. you guys have a good day.
Josh
So, for those of you who dont know, I started my schools Gay-straight alliance. I have put so much time, money, and effort into that organization its silly.
This past semester, I stepped down as president so that I could let other people learn leadership. I was supposed to be secretary, but due to a suprise change of events, that position was filled by someone else. (not that I care, I am so glad that our new secretary is in that position, becuase she is most awesome. and I am not mad that she got it now, though at the time I was really kinda of hurt)
not the point.
But let me clear that up real fast. I am not mad that M. is our secretary. I know how this online journal stuff gets translated in the real world. I am glad that she is there.
other point.
Today I went to change the website and I saw that it was changed and the website I had made was pretty much gone. I was really hurt then. I worked on that damn thing for 12 hours on day. True, it wasnt like the best website, but it was the one I put so much time into. and it was just pretty much deleted. No one asked me if I wanted a copy, no one asked what I thought about it.
I know that this past semester I have been kinda of distant in the group, but I went through a whole hell of a lot personal drama that no one in the group knows about, and they just view me as a slacker.
and It seems clear to me, that I am not wanted/needed in the group. I mean, we founded the group so that gay people on campus could have a place to go to, and now I dont feel comfortable around the group.
But I graduate in December and I will no longer be at SEMO. (thank god) and I shouldnt care about a silly group, but when its something that is the highlight of your college career, it hurts to have it taken away? thats not the right pharse.. It hurts to have it loose value? I dont know what feels I am feeling here...
But yeah. going to go find a ride to work.. you guys have a good day.
Josh