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It's an ARGHHHHHHHHH kind of week. Really frustrating. Ever have those weeks where everything just sets you off and you feel sort of like a ticking time bomb? That's so me this week, and it's weird, 'cause I'm usually really chilled out and laid back. I think I'm turning into one of those weird control freaks that repress and do the bright smile 24/7 thing, and then just sort of explode at the worst times in the worst possible manner. It's pretty crazy, I've been hearing some stories lately that make me go 'whoaaa who is that girl?' 'Cause as my good old New Egyptians know, I wasn't exactly miss wild and nuts in high school. Maybe it's the indian repressed thing. Huh. I think it's just that I miss my friends and my home so much sometimes. I called Jeff yesterday and made him meet me outside my meeting in the basement of Hardenberg just so we could share a smoke and talk for a bit. It was so nice to get a hug and a talking-to from a familiar face who's known me since I was 15-16, you know? I'm so glad John and Gina are coming this weekend for that reason...we're not even really partying. Just being low-key and hanging out once again--haven't done that since forever.
I've askewed paragraphs.
Anyways. I'm just going nuts right now. I've been trying to go to classes and work and sleep and do homework and do IDIA and MECH all at the same time and I feel like the more I try and accomplish, the less I get done. It's moving backwards time. I haven't really written in awhile, and it's a sort of catharsis for me, so if you're bored move right along. But if not, I'd love advice as to how to sort of feel better about the mistakes you make and how to move forward from them while not putting too much pressure on yourself so that you...well, self-destruct.
I need a cigarette and a steak and I cannot have either. This bothers me.
I have to go to work in 3 hours. I haven't slept in 24. So I'm off to nap, while I try and figure out the wrongs of the universe. And try and stop wanting to bite a certain person's stupid damn face off. (This is inner indian fundamentalist anger coming out...Katie knows what I mean.)
Byeeee!
I've askewed paragraphs.
Anyways. I'm just going nuts right now. I've been trying to go to classes and work and sleep and do homework and do IDIA and MECH all at the same time and I feel like the more I try and accomplish, the less I get done. It's moving backwards time. I haven't really written in awhile, and it's a sort of catharsis for me, so if you're bored move right along. But if not, I'd love advice as to how to sort of feel better about the mistakes you make and how to move forward from them while not putting too much pressure on yourself so that you...well, self-destruct.
I need a cigarette and a steak and I cannot have either. This bothers me.
I have to go to work in 3 hours. I haven't slept in 24. So I'm off to nap, while I try and figure out the wrongs of the universe. And try and stop wanting to bite a certain person's stupid damn face off. (This is inner indian fundamentalist anger coming out...Katie knows what I mean.)
Byeeee!