Cyber Supplication
Yesterday was a doozy, from beginning to end. I couldn't seem to say anything right, do anything right, react correctly, or budge without offending someone. I can't count on one hand the number of folks whom I upset with my carelessness.
Sometimes, it takes an army of friends, peers, colleagues, and mentors to simultaneously call you on your bullshit before you stop, take stock, and recalibrate. Which is what I'm trying to do today.
So...
Stacie: I apologize if my joking upset you, and, if in defending myself, I was caustic.
Sarita: I understand. Sad, yes. But understanding. It wasn't meant to be, but you're meant to be something great. Just believe that.
LeBlanc: Sure, I don't feel you cut me even an inch of slack, but still, I'm sorry for speaking out of hand. My intention wasn't to insult you in anyway.
KatKat: Whatever happens, I hope your view of me isn't informed too much by my style of argumentation. I've got to shake this Devil's Advocacy thing. Sorry.
Tonie/Jeff: I'm sorry if my sense of humor offends you, as my aim is never to offend. It was weird last night, not feeling comfortable enough to say hi. I don't like that. And I hope, going forward, I can do a better job of understanding your point of view and incorporating some of it into my life.
KK: This isn't an apology as much as a curiosity: Why has it gone from great to awful to empty? Why do I feel like a piece of furniture when you're in the room?
Andy: Get to work.
I'm considering dropping the journal for a while, as it seems to get me into trouble I otherwise wouldn't be in. And frankly, that's zero fun. And I want to inject more fun into my world these days.
The internet doesn't count. But I sure act like it does some times.
Sometimes, it takes an army of friends, peers, colleagues, and mentors to simultaneously call you on your bullshit before you stop, take stock, and recalibrate. Which is what I'm trying to do today.
So...
Stacie: I apologize if my joking upset you, and, if in defending myself, I was caustic.
Sarita: I understand. Sad, yes. But understanding. It wasn't meant to be, but you're meant to be something great. Just believe that.
LeBlanc: Sure, I don't feel you cut me even an inch of slack, but still, I'm sorry for speaking out of hand. My intention wasn't to insult you in anyway.
KatKat: Whatever happens, I hope your view of me isn't informed too much by my style of argumentation. I've got to shake this Devil's Advocacy thing. Sorry.
Tonie/Jeff: I'm sorry if my sense of humor offends you, as my aim is never to offend. It was weird last night, not feeling comfortable enough to say hi. I don't like that. And I hope, going forward, I can do a better job of understanding your point of view and incorporating some of it into my life.
KK: This isn't an apology as much as a curiosity: Why has it gone from great to awful to empty? Why do I feel like a piece of furniture when you're in the room?
Andy: Get to work.
I'm considering dropping the journal for a while, as it seems to get me into trouble I otherwise wouldn't be in. And frankly, that's zero fun. And I want to inject more fun into my world these days.
The internet doesn't count. But I sure act like it does some times.