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Sonic opened today on Fort Street. I'm boycotting it because everyone is freaking the fuck out about another god damn fast food restaurant. Another ploy to get us fat, another reason to give your dollars to the man.
On another note, I was thinking about the time I lived in Colorado and we all had been drinking all night. He had to wake up and drive someone to the airport and he was still plenty wasted. I stayed in bed when he left and I woke up 2 hours later, no husband. I remember frantically calling his phone over and over again, no answer. I remember crying and screaming and waking up his friends to try and call from their phone. I called my Mom and screamed and cried to her on the phone, thinking of all the places he could have been, dead in a ditch somewhere. All I kept thinking was he was too drunk to drive and fell asleep driving and was in some hospital somewhere, or dead in a damn ditch. While I was on the phone with my mom, he beeped in, telling me how he had pulled over in a parking lot to sleep before he drove home. I realized in that moment how in love with that man I was. Thinking of him gone made me go nuts and want to die myself. I look back on that now and it makes me wild thinking that I lost someone who I loved so so much. I can't wait for the day I care enough about someone again that I'd give my life for them.
Besides, I'd rather forget the days we spent, than try to stay afloat in shallow water.