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I think something bad happened.
I'm so peaceful and restless at the same time.
It's 2 am.
I have a full day tommorrow.
Yet, I can't fall asleep.
I've been laying in the dark listening to Radiohead and the String Quartet's version of Tell All Your Friends by Taking Back Sunday.
It makes me so sad that I can't really finish listening to any of the songs.
I finished all the outstanding work I had to do for my classes.
I applied for a full time job.
I don't want to work at the summer camp.
I want to get that Land Rover and make money.
I remember when a hot shower, wet hair, three blankets, and the ac on made me content and I could sleep through the whole night.
Now the only thing lulling me to sleep is the mildly loud sounds of the click clacking of my keys.
I miss Jake so much. I seriously lost my best friend.
I dunno what it would take to talk to him again.
Yet at the same time, there is still so much shit I have unresolved.
Trust.
Who deserves it?
I'm so peaceful and restless at the same time.
It's 2 am.
I have a full day tommorrow.
Yet, I can't fall asleep.
I've been laying in the dark listening to Radiohead and the String Quartet's version of Tell All Your Friends by Taking Back Sunday.
It makes me so sad that I can't really finish listening to any of the songs.
I finished all the outstanding work I had to do for my classes.
I applied for a full time job.
I don't want to work at the summer camp.
I want to get that Land Rover and make money.
I remember when a hot shower, wet hair, three blankets, and the ac on made me content and I could sleep through the whole night.
Now the only thing lulling me to sleep is the mildly loud sounds of the click clacking of my keys.
I miss Jake so much. I seriously lost my best friend.
I dunno what it would take to talk to him again.
Yet at the same time, there is still so much shit I have unresolved.
Trust.
Who deserves it?