JESUS!! THERE YOU ARE!!
AHAHAHA
I think I've becoming a Jesus freak, without even meaning to as well. I guess my Mom's finally won, she's got me back in Bible Study. Interestingly enough, it's not bad
.... I enjoy it.
It could be for one of two reasons, either I'm actually starting to see religion in a less trivial light and actually take lessons that it teaches with me.
OR, and this makes me feel kinda bad, but I've asked God and he says we're chill about it,
I'm doing it because it gives me an excuse to see Hayley...
Once again, I feel guilty about that. Ah, the essence of Catholicism. But if God says we're chill, then I guess, we're...chill.
Still though, it does seem rather, I don't know, underhanded doesn't it? I haven't told anyone else about this, I don't think I can. Mostly because it seems everytime I give voice to how I'm feeling it always turns out in pretty shitty ways. It's become so hard to actually tell people how I'm feeling without slipping in a lie that it's almost becoming impossible to tell what is the truth and what isn't. I'm really scared about this which makes me feel even worse because I know a bunch of people have things going on with them that are way shittier and I don't have it in me to ring 'em up and lay my problems on them. Still, it's hard not having someone you can talk to face to face that you feel can make sense of a situation you can't. I always seem to be so good at it, but then when it comes down to your own problems you're rarely are very good at solving them. Hmm, it would be interesting to see what would happen if something I wanted I actually got wouldn't it? But then, life is a storm we have only ourselves and our faith to quiet it.
Amen
I think I've becoming a Jesus freak, without even meaning to as well. I guess my Mom's finally won, she's got me back in Bible Study. Interestingly enough, it's not bad
.... I enjoy it.
It could be for one of two reasons, either I'm actually starting to see religion in a less trivial light and actually take lessons that it teaches with me.
OR, and this makes me feel kinda bad, but I've asked God and he says we're chill about it,
I'm doing it because it gives me an excuse to see Hayley...
Once again, I feel guilty about that. Ah, the essence of Catholicism. But if God says we're chill, then I guess, we're...chill.
Still though, it does seem rather, I don't know, underhanded doesn't it? I haven't told anyone else about this, I don't think I can. Mostly because it seems everytime I give voice to how I'm feeling it always turns out in pretty shitty ways. It's become so hard to actually tell people how I'm feeling without slipping in a lie that it's almost becoming impossible to tell what is the truth and what isn't. I'm really scared about this which makes me feel even worse because I know a bunch of people have things going on with them that are way shittier and I don't have it in me to ring 'em up and lay my problems on them. Still, it's hard not having someone you can talk to face to face that you feel can make sense of a situation you can't. I always seem to be so good at it, but then when it comes down to your own problems you're rarely are very good at solving them. Hmm, it would be interesting to see what would happen if something I wanted I actually got wouldn't it? But then, life is a storm we have only ourselves and our faith to quiet it.
Amen