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Can we pull through this avalanche?
Have you ever had one of those days when you looked back and all you could see were memories and people long since gone from your life? Today is one of those days for me. It's the strange tugging between nostalgia and pain, where I know that the past is over but I want to embrace it so much. Have you ever wanted to reverse time and preserve those good friendships, the ones that never should have ended but did, and make more memories, more moments that in hindsight are so good and amazing? I remember staying up until past midnight just talking with people, friends, who really knew and understood me. While the same thing happens nowadays, all of my new friends, especially at college, aren't as close as the old ones were. I know that time will draw me closer to my new friends, but the past seems so friendly and safe that it's hard to break through the nostalgia to something new and different. It's so strange that I only have these moments once or twice in a long while, but when I do, I envision all these lost memories and friendships of the last... and I wish it wasn't in my nature to lose touch with people. I'm horrible with keeping in touch, despite my best intentions. Ever since I befriended a little girl when I was in middle school and promised her I'd keep in touch... I've lost so many good friendships simply by one or both of us not staying in touch.
Then again, I try and get better with each friendship that I make and lose. So one day, maybe I'll stay in touch with everyone I meet and I won't miss out on any of those opportunities.
Every once in a while, I get into one of those pensive moods. Have you ever had them, where you think too much about everything and then end up thinking about things far too much? That's okay though... I think it's healthy to think too much sometimes. At least I hope it is.
Click to viewCan we pull through this avalanche?
Have you ever had one of those days when you looked back and all you could see were memories and people long since gone from your life? Today is one of those days for me. It's the strange tugging between nostalgia and pain, where I know that the past is over but I want to embrace it so much. Have you ever wanted to reverse time and preserve those good friendships, the ones that never should have ended but did, and make more memories, more moments that in hindsight are so good and amazing? I remember staying up until past midnight just talking with people, friends, who really knew and understood me. While the same thing happens nowadays, all of my new friends, especially at college, aren't as close as the old ones were. I know that time will draw me closer to my new friends, but the past seems so friendly and safe that it's hard to break through the nostalgia to something new and different. It's so strange that I only have these moments once or twice in a long while, but when I do, I envision all these lost memories and friendships of the last... and I wish it wasn't in my nature to lose touch with people. I'm horrible with keeping in touch, despite my best intentions. Ever since I befriended a little girl when I was in middle school and promised her I'd keep in touch... I've lost so many good friendships simply by one or both of us not staying in touch.
Then again, I try and get better with each friendship that I make and lose. So one day, maybe I'll stay in touch with everyone I meet and I won't miss out on any of those opportunities.
Every once in a while, I get into one of those pensive moods. Have you ever had them, where you think too much about everything and then end up thinking about things far too much? That's okay though... I think it's healthy to think too much sometimes. At least I hope it is.