I think I've come to a conclusion
So, I was talking to Stephanie (the greatest person in the world) abot religon last night, and she had the perfect analogy it goes something like this:
"For me believing in God and allowing him to be a part of my life is relaxing. It's like being in the back seat of the car, not being the driver or the navigator but just along for the ride. I don't have to worry about things, I know I'll get where I'm going eventually."
But I'm not in the backseat just enjoying the ride. I'm not the driver. I'm the navigator. I'm stuck in this inbetween place. The place where you feel like you have control, but really the driver is the one in control. I'm not ready to move to the back seat. I might never be. I'm not ready to let God be the center of my life. I've accepted that, come to terms with that. Thought about that most of the night instead of sleeping.
When I went out for coffee with Katie-Beth I was prepared to tell her all of this, but the topic of religon never came up. I think she is trying to become my friend, so that I will open up to her more. She seems like a very nice person that I would like to get to know better, but I don't know if I'll ever be ready to leave the navigator's seat. No matter how hard she trys. I don't think the way she does. God is not the center of my life right now, and I don't know if God will ever be.
Enough about me trying to find myself, and on to my love for calculus.
We started deriviatives! Like, the short-cuts to them! I love math! I don't know when this started or how it happened, but I'm looking forward to doing my homework this weekend! What is wrong with me? I think I might minor in math, but I'm not sure. Still thinking about it.
In a half hour I'm leaving to volunteer. I'm actually excited! I think after I volunteer a floor mate and I are going to the Salvation Army. I'm fairly excited for that. Tomorrow I'm going to a play! It will be my 1st college play. I'm rather excited. I hope it's a good one.
Well, if you're lucky I might rammble on about nothing later... Have a great Friday/weekend.
"For me believing in God and allowing him to be a part of my life is relaxing. It's like being in the back seat of the car, not being the driver or the navigator but just along for the ride. I don't have to worry about things, I know I'll get where I'm going eventually."
But I'm not in the backseat just enjoying the ride. I'm not the driver. I'm the navigator. I'm stuck in this inbetween place. The place where you feel like you have control, but really the driver is the one in control. I'm not ready to move to the back seat. I might never be. I'm not ready to let God be the center of my life. I've accepted that, come to terms with that. Thought about that most of the night instead of sleeping.
When I went out for coffee with Katie-Beth I was prepared to tell her all of this, but the topic of religon never came up. I think she is trying to become my friend, so that I will open up to her more. She seems like a very nice person that I would like to get to know better, but I don't know if I'll ever be ready to leave the navigator's seat. No matter how hard she trys. I don't think the way she does. God is not the center of my life right now, and I don't know if God will ever be.
Enough about me trying to find myself, and on to my love for calculus.
We started deriviatives! Like, the short-cuts to them! I love math! I don't know when this started or how it happened, but I'm looking forward to doing my homework this weekend! What is wrong with me? I think I might minor in math, but I'm not sure. Still thinking about it.
In a half hour I'm leaving to volunteer. I'm actually excited! I think after I volunteer a floor mate and I are going to the Salvation Army. I'm fairly excited for that. Tomorrow I'm going to a play! It will be my 1st college play. I'm rather excited. I hope it's a good one.
Well, if you're lucky I might rammble on about nothing later... Have a great Friday/weekend.