Overwhelmed
I am feeling so incredibly overwhelmed at the moment. I have so much to do, and I feel like I have no idea what I am doing.
I have to make a digital story on a social justice issue...no idea how to pick a topic, how to represent the topic through pictures, and how to talk about it insightfully about it. I am absolutely lost. I have to submit it by Dec. 15, but I'll have to send it earlier because I need to send it by mail. I am really freaking out about this.
I need to choose a topic for my action research. During this practicum, I have to research an issue of importance to me(such as something about classroom management), and try out different techniques in the classroom and see how they go, so I can write a paper on them. I have idea what I am going to do my research on...and time is going by really fast!!!!
As soon as I get back in January I have to submit a form saying where I intend to do my alternate placement in March and April. I need to find a setting besides a public school classroom, and I have no idea how to approach places about taking me on. I thought this wasn't due until February, but I was wrong. I have to figure this out before I go back, as I want to do my placement in Mississauga if possible.
We are getting back into starting clubs, and the other girls want to run THREE clubs!!! That is crazy...I am stressed about planning activities for those clubs.
Mostly, I am stressed about the everyday stuff. Planning lessons and units. I have planned lessons, but with more direction, and in isolation, more or less. Now I have to plan an entire unit on Stability, and I am so confused and overwhelmed. I really don't have that much time, but I need to teach an entire unit, and she's still not even done the previous unit!!! But I just feel like I have no idea what I am doing, and they assume you know a lot of stuff that I don't really know. I also have to try and teach other subjects, and eventually be teaching atleast half of the day everyday in this round, or teaching a lot of the time anyway! Math, she is not on any of the topics she told me she would be when I was here, so I don't have any ideas for that. Language, she is teaching paragraph writing but I'm not sure what I can do to add to that...Social studies, she is doing pioneers but I have no idea what she still needs to teach. I really need to sit down and talk to her but I get so nervous and forget to ask her stuff. And I feel like she's so busy that I don't want to disturb her by asking so many questions, but I really need to.
I actually think the first round of teaching was much easier...now I think she assumes I know a lot and I really don't, and I'm feeling very panicky about it tonight! I just have to try and calm down. I have been working all day, and I feel like I haven't accomplished anything at all!
Sigh....back to work, then to bed, then up early again tomorrow....I'm worried I am going to burn out very soon.