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week
on monday i noticed it was really really easy to talk to people again after smoking myself stupid over spring break. went to school, did homework, talked to my dorky friends, played guitar and talked to my stinky mexican girl.
friday
went to lances, fumared mota and played guitarra. i wanted his lazy little sister to pull out her drum set and jam but she never really acknowledged my presence. it's understandable though.. alot of time has passed since we've talked and we don't really know each other. maybe she was just high. lance appears to be going through some funk.. he quit smoking and his grades went to shit and he must be searching for the meaning of life (which happens to be, in my mind a) to make yourself happy b) to make someone else happy c) to do your damn best with a family in THAT order) either way playing video games with wesley is mucho fun. got home and went to cory's house with bob. caught up with them, smoked more, passed out.
sabado
woke up at 7 for the EAOP test prep thing but realized A) i didn't register, therefore wouldn't likely get in, B) i don't think i wanna go to UCSD C) i was tired D) i wanted to enjoy my saturday E) there would be more opportunities to kiss UCSD's ass
SO
i called rachel. the night before i told her i didn't think we could kick it on saturday cuz i'd be going to the thing but wanted to see if she had any plans.. turns out her ex who wants her so fucking bad asked her to hang out with him and she convinced him to make it a group thing instead of a one on one ergh thing.. they were gonna go to belmont park but she ended up meeting me up instead.. she looked beautiful. i still get really excited when i first see her and feel so lucky when she comes over ot hug ME. so.we went back down to I.B., walked HALFWAY down the pier because she was in shorts and doesn't have body hair to keep her warm like me. we got on each others shoulders and spun on circles.. a good alternative to doing drugs. we eventually headed back to my place, made love (boinked), and ate candy. after awhile we had to start back or she'd be late.. we spent alot of time talking, kissing and skating. she's getting better then me.. i guess thats the real reason i keep skating on my ankle despite the injury, i fear that one day, one day soon, she'll be able to skate like me. i had a lot of fun with that chick.. when i was going to meet her up i felt like shit because i have no money no ride and therefore i thought i had no way to have fun with her or anything.. but we had a really good time.. better then the 30 dollar movie we walked out of. i love you rachel.
after escorting her home (on the bus :-() i moseyed over to syds house to see what her party was like. i got there late so it was a bunch of kids i didn't know sitting in a circle on her bed, and bob playing dance dance revolution. i tried to play it but i was SO damn high and slow it just didn't work. after about an hour i walked back to my house with tara and bob, ate, called mi hija and returned. i ended up leaving to walk arouund with kids i already knew two more times for about an hour each time because i guess i didn't wanna try to get to know the people there. eventually we started watching really corny horror movies.. one was butcher boy.. this fat hilarious.. butcher.. killing people. there was also beavis and butthead, more funky movies and some anime i couldn't make myself pay attention to. the people there ended up being pretty cool.. the dudes were funny and the 2? chicks were a bit stuck up but hey everyone goes through that. i had alot of fun tickling matt, sydneys man becuz he just wiggled his feet in a circle and laughed like a horse. maybe i'm gay. so we watched stupid movies, smoked pot and played ddr until the sun rose.
sunday
i ate pancakes and took off. wanted to hang out with raquel but at that point it looked like it would be 3 hours of transit for an hour together.. so i lounged around my house smoking weed until alex and foot dropped by looking for some. i smoked them and andy out and eventually made some music with alex. he was on bass and i was on a guitar.. SO cool because i never get to play with distortion. his bass was out of tune but i was too high to figure out i could solve that problem by tuning it myself. it was fun though, and i got to show those dudes some skill.. i think they're starting a band and it would be fucking sick to have some pot smoking idiots on my block to jam with all the time. tommy came and started busting switch flips and it made me wanna skate SO FUCKING BAD ARGHHH.. anyway they smoked practically all my weed. saved a couple bowls for me and my girly until i can come up on some $ for some more. its cool to hang out with people.. having a couple down ass friends will always mean the most to me but having plenty of dudes around is something i've missed. it was cool to spend some time in I.B. for a change.
today
most of today was nothing special, school, math testing, come home, blah de blah. when i got home i called rachel. i was walking around and out of nowhere i just really wanted to talk to her. for awhile things went alright and i don't know what happened but we started acting shitty towards each other. she said i was acting mean, why i don't know, so she started acting mean and it just went back and forth until it got awkward.. both of us wanted to talk yet we debated whether we should keep talking and she hung up on me. at first i was like GOOD i can hang out with my buddies and do all the fun things that i uh obviously must have wanted to do but i just fuckin sat there bummed out about it. like 15 minutes later i called her, we barked at each other some more and then it all smoothed out again. after that it got really cool because we started talking about religion as in all the propaganda and faith and what we like about it and what we don't.. then on to childhood and i dont know other shit we've been through. it felt so good to talk to her about this because we both got each other thinking new things and that really is the point of debate in any form.. thats what seperates it from argument. at 10 she had to go so to avoid homework i got online and started talkin to brandon about the horrors of the public education system, the mistakes of the white man and the establishment of america. i'd never really realized that the stability in america was built through slavery. we wouldn't be where we are today without it.. our land was wrongfully claimed and taken from native americans and mexicans. without taking advantage of other races the united states would be a tiny powerless country of strict religious weenies who ran from england. try to think of all the freedoms you take for granted. the right to express yourself is vital to freedom, and i think it's what makes this nation so free compared to the dictatorships in other countries. marinate on that will ya? then i started talking about some of this crap with my mom and she started talking about how puerto rico is a welfare island and adding all this insight she has.. my relationship with my mom is not cool.. she's a smart smart lady who would punch your lights out for me. it's always been really hard to talk with her cuz she either talks over me or doesn't listen.. there's so much bullshit between us..i think alot of it is misunderstandings and stuff from her past that messes her up. i dont know man but after talking with her for awhile i felt something to a degree i haven't felt since i was a little crap factory. i love her and appreciate everything she does and puts up with.. i don't know.. if you're aware of all the drama and shit i've been through with that lady you'd realize what a revelation that is.
this shit took longer then i thought but its cool to get it all out. and i know i've got adoring fans.. so i can't let them down.. anymore. i'm going to sleep now.. i love you rachel. i love you too jimmy hang in there man. you do anything stupid and i'll dig you up and beat you with your own leg, then rebury you with your ass hanging out.
update every day..
uh huh..
ok summary time
week
on monday i noticed it was really really easy to talk to people again after smoking myself stupid over spring break. went to school, did homework, talked to my dorky friends, played guitar and talked to my stinky mexican girl.
friday
went to lances, fumared mota and played guitarra. i wanted his lazy little sister to pull out her drum set and jam but she never really acknowledged my presence. it's understandable though.. alot of time has passed since we've talked and we don't really know each other. maybe she was just high. lance appears to be going through some funk.. he quit smoking and his grades went to shit and he must be searching for the meaning of life (which happens to be, in my mind a) to make yourself happy b) to make someone else happy c) to do your damn best with a family in THAT order) either way playing video games with wesley is mucho fun. got home and went to cory's house with bob. caught up with them, smoked more, passed out.
sabado
woke up at 7 for the EAOP test prep thing but realized A) i didn't register, therefore wouldn't likely get in, B) i don't think i wanna go to UCSD C) i was tired D) i wanted to enjoy my saturday E) there would be more opportunities to kiss UCSD's ass
SO
i called rachel. the night before i told her i didn't think we could kick it on saturday cuz i'd be going to the thing but wanted to see if she had any plans.. turns out her ex who wants her so fucking bad asked her to hang out with him and she convinced him to make it a group thing instead of a one on one ergh thing.. they were gonna go to belmont park but she ended up meeting me up instead.. she looked beautiful. i still get really excited when i first see her and feel so lucky when she comes over ot hug ME. so.we went back down to I.B., walked HALFWAY down the pier because she was in shorts and doesn't have body hair to keep her warm like me. we got on each others shoulders and spun on circles.. a good alternative to doing drugs. we eventually headed back to my place, made love (boinked), and ate candy. after awhile we had to start back or she'd be late.. we spent alot of time talking, kissing and skating. she's getting better then me.. i guess thats the real reason i keep skating on my ankle despite the injury, i fear that one day, one day soon, she'll be able to skate like me. i had a lot of fun with that chick.. when i was going to meet her up i felt like shit because i have no money no ride and therefore i thought i had no way to have fun with her or anything.. but we had a really good time.. better then the 30 dollar movie we walked out of. i love you rachel.
after escorting her home (on the bus :-() i moseyed over to syds house to see what her party was like. i got there late so it was a bunch of kids i didn't know sitting in a circle on her bed, and bob playing dance dance revolution. i tried to play it but i was SO damn high and slow it just didn't work. after about an hour i walked back to my house with tara and bob, ate, called mi hija and returned. i ended up leaving to walk arouund with kids i already knew two more times for about an hour each time because i guess i didn't wanna try to get to know the people there. eventually we started watching really corny horror movies.. one was butcher boy.. this fat hilarious.. butcher.. killing people. there was also beavis and butthead, more funky movies and some anime i couldn't make myself pay attention to. the people there ended up being pretty cool.. the dudes were funny and the 2? chicks were a bit stuck up but hey everyone goes through that. i had alot of fun tickling matt, sydneys man becuz he just wiggled his feet in a circle and laughed like a horse. maybe i'm gay. so we watched stupid movies, smoked pot and played ddr until the sun rose.
sunday
i ate pancakes and took off. wanted to hang out with raquel but at that point it looked like it would be 3 hours of transit for an hour together.. so i lounged around my house smoking weed until alex and foot dropped by looking for some. i smoked them and andy out and eventually made some music with alex. he was on bass and i was on a guitar.. SO cool because i never get to play with distortion. his bass was out of tune but i was too high to figure out i could solve that problem by tuning it myself. it was fun though, and i got to show those dudes some skill.. i think they're starting a band and it would be fucking sick to have some pot smoking idiots on my block to jam with all the time. tommy came and started busting switch flips and it made me wanna skate SO FUCKING BAD ARGHHH.. anyway they smoked practically all my weed. saved a couple bowls for me and my girly until i can come up on some $ for some more. its cool to hang out with people.. having a couple down ass friends will always mean the most to me but having plenty of dudes around is something i've missed. it was cool to spend some time in I.B. for a change.
today
most of today was nothing special, school, math testing, come home, blah de blah. when i got home i called rachel. i was walking around and out of nowhere i just really wanted to talk to her. for awhile things went alright and i don't know what happened but we started acting shitty towards each other. she said i was acting mean, why i don't know, so she started acting mean and it just went back and forth until it got awkward.. both of us wanted to talk yet we debated whether we should keep talking and she hung up on me. at first i was like GOOD i can hang out with my buddies and do all the fun things that i uh obviously must have wanted to do but i just fuckin sat there bummed out about it. like 15 minutes later i called her, we barked at each other some more and then it all smoothed out again. after that it got really cool because we started talking about religion as in all the propaganda and faith and what we like about it and what we don't.. then on to childhood and i dont know other shit we've been through. it felt so good to talk to her about this because we both got each other thinking new things and that really is the point of debate in any form.. thats what seperates it from argument. at 10 she had to go so to avoid homework i got online and started talkin to brandon about the horrors of the public education system, the mistakes of the white man and the establishment of america. i'd never really realized that the stability in america was built through slavery. we wouldn't be where we are today without it.. our land was wrongfully claimed and taken from native americans and mexicans. without taking advantage of other races the united states would be a tiny powerless country of strict religious weenies who ran from england. try to think of all the freedoms you take for granted. the right to express yourself is vital to freedom, and i think it's what makes this nation so free compared to the dictatorships in other countries. marinate on that will ya? then i started talking about some of this crap with my mom and she started talking about how puerto rico is a welfare island and adding all this insight she has.. my relationship with my mom is not cool.. she's a smart smart lady who would punch your lights out for me. it's always been really hard to talk with her cuz she either talks over me or doesn't listen.. there's so much bullshit between us..i think alot of it is misunderstandings and stuff from her past that messes her up. i dont know man but after talking with her for awhile i felt something to a degree i haven't felt since i was a little crap factory. i love her and appreciate everything she does and puts up with.. i don't know.. if you're aware of all the drama and shit i've been through with that lady you'd realize what a revelation that is.
this shit took longer then i thought but its cool to get it all out. and i know i've got adoring fans.. so i can't let them down.. anymore. i'm going to sleep now.. i love you rachel. i love you too jimmy hang in there man. you do anything stupid and i'll dig you up and beat you with your own leg, then rebury you with your ass hanging out.