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a lots happened since i last sat down and wrote in here.. for the last couple weeks i've been getting by at school, somehow got a 3.5 for the last grading period. lately i've been putting shit off hardcore.. it's simple not cool.. i have a grip of math homework and other projects i've procrastinated on starting.. i guess overall i had a pretty cool spring break. spent alot of time hanging out with my beautiful stinky girlfriend and the rest of the mofos in i.b. back and forth to my girl's house i was in north park and downtown alot so i guess about 1/4 of my vacation has been chilling stoned listening to music and staring at the funky people who live here.. made lots of friends like a bum who keep saying "nobody loves me" and a junkie who was wearing like 5 layers of panchos, one of those SARS style surgery masks and some of those crazy UV protection sunglasses. I had fun hanging out with my friends but it seems like most of my plans didn't end up happening.. everytime i was gonna go somewhere somethin came up and my buddies who were going to rosarito didn't because john the farmer-stoner slang for someone who does something lame under the influence..... left his xbox and backpack on the bus and he needed his money. i spent more time sitting around smoking weed because i couldnt get out and skate.. i miss being able to pop the back and grind and shit.. lately i've been doing alot of manuals and the nollie shove its because they're easy on my ankle but i always end up rolling it and prolonging the healing. i'm guessing it needs another week and a half if i don't fuck it up again.. argh..
4.20 almost turned out gay this year..
woke up cuz rachel called.. talked to her for a little while and went back to sleep till like 11:30.. made MUFFINS and took a shower and rachel called cuz she got back from being dragged to church but i missed it.. called her back but she wasn't home so i just hung out and played guitar for awhile. after being told and, sadly, believing my electric guitar was a piece of shit i got really bored and decided to restring it anyway. the process took 2 hours because i was stoned, but i learned how to tie the ends so that they lock.. therefore the loose tuning posts don't matter. since i replaced the springs that hold the bridge (the metal piece at the bottom where the strings meet the guitar) in place it actually stays in tune.. i got a new strap so now that i've had a dependable comfortable guitar i've been playing all day for the last couple of days..yeah anyways by 2 i had called everybody and no one had any pot or money so i was out of luck.. it was so gay man last years 4.20 was a little party at jimmy's house with food, a grip of weed and so many ways to smoke it.. i got bored and searched my room until i found some crumbs left over from the sack i bought when spring break started. a couple bowls and 2 stolen beers later i was playing some old voodoo glow skulls and rachel called.. she said she was gonna chill at jackie's video store and wanted me to come down. i got there and we ate jackie's easter candy and some mnms and then i smoked rachel out walking down an alley.. jackie had to work the register and enter peoples names into the computer so she didnt wanna get high. it's cool that my girl finally knows how to properly smoke weed.. despite all my attempts today was the first time i've ever seen her really stoned. we wandered back to the video store and hung out on the floor near the porn section, laughing like idiots. then rachel tried to cartwheel but jackie and i embarassed her with our pro cartwheels. she felt bad but its ok. its weird that she used to be a cheerleader and jackie wants to try out but i'm the only one that can do toe touches. then we just killed time until we had to get back home.. filled out membership forms, talked, cleaned jackie's shoes, kissed, fought savagely for mnm's.. it was pretty cool. at 8:30 i had to start heading back so i waited at the bus stop with rachel. i hugged her and we talked about some of the shit we fought about today.. no major fight but just misunderstandings. its cool to see the communication getting easier.. i felt really lucky kissing her before i got on the bus. i've got a cool relationship with that chick on so many levels.. and she's hot too. i got home, ate like crazy because my mom finally went shopping, and delivered bobs calculator.
im still up for some reason.. haven't touched my god damn homework but i wanted to write AND i got a special request to so now i gotta wake up in 3 and a half hours. oh well man. i guess i missed school but what i've been up to since then is much cooler. sex love drugs and music versus responsibility and school and less sleep. ARGHHHH i gotta fuckin work and seriously cut down on weed. shouldnt be hard considering i'm out and broke.. can't run from the real world forever.
i have long, weird trains of thought on the bus. here's one of them.. it's weird how society has evolved over the years of human existence.. what has become acceptable and what has become taboo. while morals and laws are simply beliefs and opinions, other people's control me and there is little i can do about it. i can express how i feel, which is something i appreciate yet i don't have the power to change society. this is not a power that is gained when you become of age to vote, because look at who's fucking running for office.. so many politicians are losers who screw the general public.. look at gray davis and all the electricity bullshit in cali. when he came into office about 8 years ago, cali had a billion dollar surplus of tax money. in the right hands that money could've gone far, yet in 4 years we've been plunged into debt. money was dedicated to education, yet now after all the sdg&e scamming and major spending california's economy is fucked. there's major fund cuts everywhere, especially in education, which davis supposedly supported. the point of this rant? about 6 months ago he got re-elected because his major opponent simon whats his name was a known huge spender with a completely different yet weird platform. voters left without real options re-elected a fag who they now want to impeach. in conclusion i, like the majority of citizens am opinionated yet powerless.
man i need sleep. take care of yourselves..
i love you rachel.
happy birthday syd.