as my consciousness slips away
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
i'm really really fuckin tired. last couple of days have been alright.. the highlights being i played guitar while kendro was on the piano for like 2 hours, and he explained some shit about music. and i rubbed my asshole on syd's little brother ridge's pillow. man it's gonna be funny when he gets home and sleeps on that thing.. it smells in like one spot so he probably won't notice at first.. hahahahaaaaaaaaa..
thought i was gonna get to see rachel but my dad started acting like a bitch. this might seem one sided or something but when i asked him if i could go to see her he was like "maybe you can see a movie with her on sunday" and i asked "why sunday?" and he got really pissed. "oh sundays not good enough for you huuh?!" and i kept trying to uhh get a question answered and he just got pissed. i never even said sunday was bad, just wanted to know his reasoning. this escalated really badly without me raising my voice or doing anything dumb, he ended up saying shit like it's my mom's fault that i'm so fucked up and saying fuck you to her. over the last 6 months i've started to grow some respect for that lady, and i told him that that shit wasn't cool and that he's being a hypocrit and he just goes "oh so you're taking mommy's side now".. pretty childish shit. i was pissed cuz, out of nowhere, without me doing anything, i got fucked of the opportunity of seeing her and left with shit to do. on the bright side i'll be let go by next saturday, and his childish bullshit won't be able to stop that. i really really miss her..
i guess i'm not always willing to open up and be helped when i need help. rachel's usually been able to get past that but i was pretty stubborn today. between me stopping her efforts, feeling like my care for her wasn't returned, her feeling shitty too, and us running out of stuff to talk about we got into a fight for awhile. miscommunication seems to be at the heart of most of our fights, but eventually we get out what we wanna say and care about each other too much to keep fighting over dumb shit. it's cool how we get past shit like that with a quickness, and how we end up more in love. we can't eliminate arguments but the less the better.. it's all gravy now.
skated into mar vista middle and as i ollied off a table i saw principal escalante.. i tried to sneak towards the stage but it's hard to be sneaky in a yellow shirt. he yelled at me and i took off, nailed a couple flip tricks on the way out. it's fuckin cool to show off, but anytime you try to you should know you could eat mad shit and have the opposite effect intended.
been playing a lot of guitar, learned some old reggae by toots and the maytals and layla by eric clapton. good stuff. my parents owe me quite a bit of money in equipment, and i've got 300 (probably going to court) and some more cash in the bank. probably gonna pick up some new pieces sometime soon. a good distortion pedal is the first thing i wanna buy, but then i want a decent bass that will last. they're a lot of fun to play. i could probably stand taking my electric guitar into a shop to find out if the tuning pegs are fucked up cuz it keeps dropping out of tune.. i need some shoulder straps too. blah blah blah.. im probably gonna end up buying some weed within a month or two, i wanna spend some on my chick and i really fuckin need to get into driving classes.. i need money damn it. i should become a stripper. let me know if you're interested.. i'm gonna pass out now.
i'm really really fuckin tired. last couple of days have been alright.. the highlights being i played guitar while kendro was on the piano for like 2 hours, and he explained some shit about music. and i rubbed my asshole on syd's little brother ridge's pillow. man it's gonna be funny when he gets home and sleeps on that thing.. it smells in like one spot so he probably won't notice at first.. hahahahaaaaaaaaa..
thought i was gonna get to see rachel but my dad started acting like a bitch. this might seem one sided or something but when i asked him if i could go to see her he was like "maybe you can see a movie with her on sunday" and i asked "why sunday?" and he got really pissed. "oh sundays not good enough for you huuh?!" and i kept trying to uhh get a question answered and he just got pissed. i never even said sunday was bad, just wanted to know his reasoning. this escalated really badly without me raising my voice or doing anything dumb, he ended up saying shit like it's my mom's fault that i'm so fucked up and saying fuck you to her. over the last 6 months i've started to grow some respect for that lady, and i told him that that shit wasn't cool and that he's being a hypocrit and he just goes "oh so you're taking mommy's side now".. pretty childish shit. i was pissed cuz, out of nowhere, without me doing anything, i got fucked of the opportunity of seeing her and left with shit to do. on the bright side i'll be let go by next saturday, and his childish bullshit won't be able to stop that. i really really miss her..
i guess i'm not always willing to open up and be helped when i need help. rachel's usually been able to get past that but i was pretty stubborn today. between me stopping her efforts, feeling like my care for her wasn't returned, her feeling shitty too, and us running out of stuff to talk about we got into a fight for awhile. miscommunication seems to be at the heart of most of our fights, but eventually we get out what we wanna say and care about each other too much to keep fighting over dumb shit. it's cool how we get past shit like that with a quickness, and how we end up more in love. we can't eliminate arguments but the less the better.. it's all gravy now.
skated into mar vista middle and as i ollied off a table i saw principal escalante.. i tried to sneak towards the stage but it's hard to be sneaky in a yellow shirt. he yelled at me and i took off, nailed a couple flip tricks on the way out. it's fuckin cool to show off, but anytime you try to you should know you could eat mad shit and have the opposite effect intended.
been playing a lot of guitar, learned some old reggae by toots and the maytals and layla by eric clapton. good stuff. my parents owe me quite a bit of money in equipment, and i've got 300 (probably going to court) and some more cash in the bank. probably gonna pick up some new pieces sometime soon. a good distortion pedal is the first thing i wanna buy, but then i want a decent bass that will last. they're a lot of fun to play. i could probably stand taking my electric guitar into a shop to find out if the tuning pegs are fucked up cuz it keeps dropping out of tune.. i need some shoulder straps too. blah blah blah.. im probably gonna end up buying some weed within a month or two, i wanna spend some on my chick and i really fuckin need to get into driving classes.. i need money damn it. i should become a stripper. let me know if you're interested.. i'm gonna pass out now.