ranting
ok, long time since i had a real good bitch. im doing absolutely shite! im fuckin sick of everything, works crap, home life is crap, personal life is crap, love life just doesnt exist! im just so damn sick of this same old crap, ive put on a brave face for so many years, i feel like its time for me to give in and accept the consiquences. i havent SH'd in ages, i think only once this year and that was very minorly, but gawd how i want to now! its stupid i know, but argh! its jus eatin at me! no, nowt has happened, i just feel ugh. i think ill go mad soon.
im at work tomorrow and thursaday and riday this week argh! out with rach on friday night which should be interesting, and im going to the lakes with dad on saturday for the start of the river fishing season. i also really cant decide what to do about my car, i want something bigger but at the same time wanted what i got now for so long i dont wana see it go!
on a more concerning note, my more severe health issues are playing up again, voices, catatonia, random irrational fears... im now scared of metal objects like door handles and hand rails! wtf!!!
well i have to be at work in 8 hours so i best go to bed now... and have a good sob and think about how much i hate life... oh yay.
shoot me
im at work tomorrow and thursaday and riday this week argh! out with rach on friday night which should be interesting, and im going to the lakes with dad on saturday for the start of the river fishing season. i also really cant decide what to do about my car, i want something bigger but at the same time wanted what i got now for so long i dont wana see it go!
on a more concerning note, my more severe health issues are playing up again, voices, catatonia, random irrational fears... im now scared of metal objects like door handles and hand rails! wtf!!!
well i have to be at work in 8 hours so i best go to bed now... and have a good sob and think about how much i hate life... oh yay.
shoot me