summer continues
today's science fiction
after half a decade in los angeles, going through the bleakest most isolating personal shit while the city becomes more forbidding every day, i start to wonder if i'll ever see "nature" again and if "nature" is something that even exists.
i've got a browser plugin that shows me a different nature scene every day, and the images have started to look like science fiction to me.
this is largely a function of not being able to drive and living in a place and time when to take communal transport is to risk oneself both physically and psychically. but i somehow feel like it's all my fault and i've done things terribly wrong.