Boys suck..but I love him so much *tear*
I hate how guys can totally piss you right the fuck off, but you can't picture yourself being without them..I swear that kid is everything..honestly EVERYTHING to me..I just can't be without him..as much as he pisses me off something inside me tells me that I would be making a HUGE mistake if I was to ever leave him..I just don't noe how much longer I can take all these girls hanging off of him..I noe hes not doing anything and its innocent to him..but to a girl sometimes a hug or even a nice conversation can be a flirt..and well Elliott hugs a lot and hes one of the nicest people I noe..I just don't want some girl thinking the wrong thing..I wish I could just blow all of this stuff off and realize that hes not gonna do anything with these girls and stuff..but I just can't..I love him SO much..I can't lose him..we hung out yesterday to talk things out..at first we kinda yelled at eachother..kinda in a way both threatened eachother that if this doesn't stop we're through..we didn't straight up say it but it kinda came out that way..I was on his bed..he was sitting on his chair by his computer..about 5 minutes went by of us not talking to eachother and being all emo..then we both looked up and I told him to come over to me..he finally did..we just lyed there for a few minutes..then we just hugged..turned into us laughing cause I wanted a kiss but last time I was mad at him he wanted me to laugh so he was like..praising me and bowing and shit to me lmao..which made me laugh at his retardedness..sooo okay yeah..I wanted a kiss and hes all.."you have to bow down to me" lmao..he was laughing while I was like freaking out cause I jsut wanted a damn kiss and he wanted me to do all this worshiping shit lmao..I forget when he actually just kissed me but it felt so good..we went over to Kyles which totally cheered me up and probably him as well..we walked over to Wendys and stuff..while we were standing in line we got all close and stuff..he randomly kissed me a few times in line which again..made me feel a hell of a lot better..blah blah.we ate then went over to EB games..Kyle asked some nerdy questions for me and yeah..we walked back..I called my mom to see when she was picking me up and to tell her I was at Kyles..she was SCREAMING at me and honestly I had no idea why..I later found out she was pissed at me cause I "begged" for him back..we didn't even break up!..I told her that we needed to talk shit out and we didn't even break up..I told her that I love him and we will work things out..she didn't talk to me all night or this morning..she said sorry to me at work tonight..
I love him <3