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Awww geeze, I just love you to pieces..you're all I dream about..all I think about..we've had our ups and downs..but for the most part, everyday is perfect..I always knew there was something about you that I needed and loved..from the first day I met you, you seemed so mysterious..I needed to find out what it was..we didn't talk for like months lmao..just waved in the hall..I didn't even noe your name..(I some how forgot it)..then I slept over at Katies house and she told me we were all hanging out..sooo I got out of bed..looked like complete shit and had an AWESOME time with you..first time we ever really hung out and we totally clicked..I felt so comfortable around you..I didn't have to impress you at all..I was my total self and we grew to be awesome friends..even when I was told that I couldn't talk to you..I didn't care..as soon as I saw you I would run up to you and give you the hugest hug ever..even if I got in shit from it seconds later..it didn't seem like you cared what he thought either, which was a total turn on for some reason lmao..you would just walk away all slickly whenever he was giving me shit cause I talked to you lmao..not in a bad way..you just didn't give a shit about him..you left for England and when you came back I was at Leannes dads..you signed on and I flipped out..I asked you what you and Katie were up to and you told me you guys were just friends now and shit was going on so whatever type thing..so I asked who the next lucky lady will be..and you told me that it was your little secret..sooo that amde me pissed off lmao..I HAD to find out this gossip..so you told me to start guessing..I was naming off people..but thought that was too hard..I started asking hair colour blah blah..EVERYTHING you said was right..was something to do with me..I instantly got SUPER happy and even did a dance infront of Leanne..but you noe..I had to play ti cool cause you didnt noe that I knew lmao..wouldn't it have sucked if it wasn't even me lmao..anywaysss..I asked you if you met "this person" when you were with Chrisy (Bracken) at the begining of the year (which for me was grade 9)..you said yes..and at the time you used to call me cheeseburger LMAO..oooh man..so I asked if "this person" had a nickname cheeseburger..you said yes..then you told me that you couldn't stop thinking about me while you were in England..I got SO fricken happy and told Leanne..shes all.."what about Ryan"...yeah..that was a problem..lmao well whatever..I came home the next day..went straight over to Katies house cause you were there..cuddled with you and instantly fell in love with you..You noe whats a weird thing?..Elliott makes me feel beautiful even when I don't try to make myself somewhat pretty..on my worst days where I feel like crying when I look in a mirror, he brings me up to make me feel like a queen..hes my king and noeone is even close to thinking how much I love him..I often think about how I'm SO lucky to have him..I get amd at him if I think other girls are flirting with himor something..I just get jealous..but to tell you the truth, I havent been lately..I heard a rumour that some lenny chick was rubbing his dick..I woke him up and started freaking out..turned out it was all a bullshit lie..and instead of dragging it on like I usually did before..I told him how much I loved him..I think of it like this..if he didn't want me and cheated on me..and flirted with other girls..then he wouldn't just keep me..he would get rid of me in a second if he wanted another girl..so would any other guy..I've been with him for 15 months..we obviously love eachother very much..I was talking to Sonja about all of this..shes all.."Elliott is NOT the type of guy that would hurt you like that..if he wanted another girl he would get rid of you..he wouldn't keep you as a spare" which is SO true..ahhh god I <3LOVE<3 him..hes everything in my life <3..I wanna hold him right now..when he gets home, I'm never gonna let go of him..I'll be hugging him and kissing him for like hours..then after those hours..just stare at him and realize that I'm such a lucky girl Xo