Nov 30, 2006 02:23
I had a fabulous time at the glow social. i got checked out by some cute girls, then sat at a table with the boys, where those of us who were fed up with all the bullshit politics had a marvelous time talking about sex, comparing biceps, feeling each other's muscles and finally, spanking each other. It all started with M asking me if his black skin felt the same as white skin, so i started touching him in different places to compare.
there was a girl who made such a sound when spanked it made everyone question their orientation -- i went a little bit homo and the boys went a little bit hetero -- oh dear god to hear that sound you would have too! A, the queeniest queen, waited cruelly for seconds and seconds before giving me the biggest whack ever -- some people you could tell are natural tops.
i've been accused of being pathetic for hanging out with gay boys, and i know the label of fag hag is often a negative one, but i've decided that je m'assume! (like we say in Quebec). i don't think I'm unattractive, but i'm really shy, so it's hard for me to talk to straight boys, and also deep down, i think i want socially to be a boy (as opposed to physically) -- so I'm just a weird creature. some gay boys are misogynist, but some of them are really sweet and awesome, and those are the ones i want to hang out with. i'm bound to meet some cool straight boys eventually, ones who will like a girl that is a little bit different.