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you and i
So I haven't written in awhile simply because I have no way of organizing my thoughts. I've crazy and distant teses past weeks and all because my mommy got sick again. Then there is the point that the year is almost ending and I still have no job im still undecisive about college and I still cry from time to time over that kid. Strange right? he ( ... )Leave a comment ( 2 )
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it's been awhile
I'm staring at my phone again fighting the urges to call you and beg you to come over. i've been sitting at this desk for a year and a month waiting for something to occur that never will. its been so long since ive let myself feel anything other than pain. I looked into the mirror last night and no longer saw myself. i'm not sure who it is ( ... ) -
moms
So theses past weeks I've realized how hard my mom's job is. I've spent my days cleaning and cooking and taking care of things she usually would. I don't know how she does it all. I mean my moms is super mom believe it. Because of her health and the problems we've had I don't know where to even begin to say sorry. I want my mom to be better and ( ... ) -
(Untitled)
I've been doing some thinking and I've realized that i am a weird person. At some point i don't know if this makes me unique or what. I'm that kind of girl that wears sweaters in the summer. That dreads the idea of dresses and being criticized. I preach that we must always keep our heads up yet I'm not even sure i do.
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(Untitled)
so today i've realized nothing is ever what it seems. ive been looking for someone to help me in all thats been going on but i keep finding myself alone. And it hurts it hurts like hell because there are thoses who claim to be my bestfriends yet today were not there for me. i faced my biggest fear and that was too be alone and i must say i hate ( ... )Leave a comment ( 1 )
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wednesdays
so it all started a wednesday afternoon he showed up at my doorstep basically and all i remember was his smile. He didnt say much but that was enough to win my heart. i swear that kid had something about him that till this day is a mystery to me. so wednesdays after that and many IMs later and myspace messages we decided to hang out and ( ... ) -
adios means good bye
so i sat here thinking about my past year and the year im living right now and i think crap i suck. i mean i keep trying to keep my head up and act like im not dieing everytime something goes wrong but the truth is i dont even know how to keep trying. i wanted to be in college by now i wanted to still be in love i wanted to have my own place i ( ... )