Why writing original fiction is so hard.
*headdesk*
Basically, when I was home in March, I got a story idea that developed over the summer, and that I really want to work on.
Only problem? I'm not actually enjoying the writing-process.
Well. I'm enjoying bits of it. I'm loving the brainstorming, loving bringing out the interaction between the characters. But here's where the trouble starts; I start to write a scene, and then I just veer off-course and end up with a load of crap that's physically hard to write, doesn't come out in the right order and doesn't feel like what I want. It doesn't feel how I want it to be in my head and it feels like a waste of time sometimes. It sounds completely childish on the page because so much stuff has to be explained. I have three main characters, I have a villain with a motive, I have a beginning and an end. But somehow, it can't quite seem to be put together on the page, and yet it sounds so good in my head.
The main problem is that I have a relationship. A relationship that's meant to be a friendship; only a friendship. Now my brain wants me to toe the line of romance, just lightly. Which I'm not sure about, because one of them has just got out of a same-sex relationship that ended badly, and such a plot-point could be interpreted as homophobia: "Oh look, this gay relationship doesn't work, but this straight one DOES!" Furthermore, the relationship from the girl's point of view could seem a bit too trusting and a bit naive, not to mention a bit dumb.
On top of that, this friendship is hard work to write. Hard work to get started. I got a really good page's worth and then I veered off-course. I think the problem is, everything's too literal; I have a fourth character explaining why things are happening how they're happening. But the more time I spend trying to get the story in shape is more time taken away from the writing process, and then I discourage myself because I don't know exactly what the hell is going on, and then the cycle starts again.
Fact is, I don't know whose viewpoint to write from without creating cliches, because one of the other characters doesn't know the other two, and then there's the whole "continuously bumping into each other" thing which I really don't want to get stuck in and there's the whole problem of the third character being somewhat intrusive and annoying, but he's crucial to the ending. I don't know which viewpoint to write from FIRST - and this is important, because there's more than one. I find the female very easy to write though, so maybe I should just stick with her and make her relationship with her male character a little more ambiguous. I'm just hoping it won't become tedious.
On top of that, I have another idea that's half-finished, that I started two years ago. Some of the material is a bit dark, but I've always seemed to have such good flow with that. It came out so easily, and I received such encouragement. So now I don't know what to do.
*headdesk*
Basically, when I was home in March, I got a story idea that developed over the summer, and that I really want to work on.
Only problem? I'm not actually enjoying the writing-process.
Well. I'm enjoying bits of it. I'm loving the brainstorming, loving bringing out the interaction between the characters. But here's where the trouble starts; I start to write a scene, and then I just veer off-course and end up with a load of crap that's physically hard to write, doesn't come out in the right order and doesn't feel like what I want. It doesn't feel how I want it to be in my head and it feels like a waste of time sometimes. It sounds completely childish on the page because so much stuff has to be explained. I have three main characters, I have a villain with a motive, I have a beginning and an end. But somehow, it can't quite seem to be put together on the page, and yet it sounds so good in my head.
The main problem is that I have a relationship. A relationship that's meant to be a friendship; only a friendship. Now my brain wants me to toe the line of romance, just lightly. Which I'm not sure about, because one of them has just got out of a same-sex relationship that ended badly, and such a plot-point could be interpreted as homophobia: "Oh look, this gay relationship doesn't work, but this straight one DOES!" Furthermore, the relationship from the girl's point of view could seem a bit too trusting and a bit naive, not to mention a bit dumb.
On top of that, this friendship is hard work to write. Hard work to get started. I got a really good page's worth and then I veered off-course. I think the problem is, everything's too literal; I have a fourth character explaining why things are happening how they're happening. But the more time I spend trying to get the story in shape is more time taken away from the writing process, and then I discourage myself because I don't know exactly what the hell is going on, and then the cycle starts again.
Fact is, I don't know whose viewpoint to write from without creating cliches, because one of the other characters doesn't know the other two, and then there's the whole "continuously bumping into each other" thing which I really don't want to get stuck in and there's the whole problem of the third character being somewhat intrusive and annoying, but he's crucial to the ending. I don't know which viewpoint to write from FIRST - and this is important, because there's more than one. I find the female very easy to write though, so maybe I should just stick with her and make her relationship with her male character a little more ambiguous. I'm just hoping it won't become tedious.
On top of that, I have another idea that's half-finished, that I started two years ago. Some of the material is a bit dark, but I've always seemed to have such good flow with that. It came out so easily, and I received such encouragement. So now I don't know what to do.
*headdesk*