From the Brink... or Am I?
Today I was... full on crazy. I think I've gained a sense of self back, but most of the day was spent really thinking about how crazy I was (which is crazy). There was panic and crying and... well, a lot of mess. It would figure it'd be that time.
Many things:
1) I want to knit everything ever, though it is impossible for me to do so.
2) I can never win at losing, which is to say that even though I've lost a large amount of weight, it seems that %-wise, I'm behind the curve. I lost 15% of my body weight, and the biggest loser winner (the person who gets to do their next session of weight watchers for free at work) was someone who lost 28% of their body weight. I would be sad about losing, but I'm curious about how one loses that much weight that fast (considering I feel I have been losing weight faster than normal). Hopefully they are still healthy and can maintain that. Seriously.
3) In any case, I am a loser (in the good sense) and while my journey is slowing down considerably (as I'm near the end, so this bit is the hard bit to lose), I'm pretty happy about myself these days. Which is crazy! It's something, at least. New Weight Watchers may help me get to were I'm going, and I am confident in a way I can keep up with (maintenance wise). Very good so far.
4) We moved our PCs to the basement, and I realize it'll be the middle of summer and I'll be freezing. Perfect, that means I'll actually knit in the summer.
5) A little more Christmas shopping to do, and then done! Just in time, my goodness Christmas is not far now...
6) A little more work and my crazy project will be complete. I just hope to get a promotion (even a tiny one) soon...
This has been a long day (week/month/year/life), but at least I feel like I'm getting back from the edge from earlier. I think a little more knitting may mellow me out.
Many things:
1) I want to knit everything ever, though it is impossible for me to do so.
- I am working on a sweater.
- In the middle, I made a hat.
- I'm casting on to knit a stole, some socks, a shawl, and some mitts.
- I've ordered yarn for a husband sweater, and a husband hat to match his husband scarf.
- God wants me to knit a purple cape. And a capelet, which may or may not also be purple.
2) I can never win at losing, which is to say that even though I've lost a large amount of weight, it seems that %-wise, I'm behind the curve. I lost 15% of my body weight, and the biggest loser winner (the person who gets to do their next session of weight watchers for free at work) was someone who lost 28% of their body weight. I would be sad about losing, but I'm curious about how one loses that much weight that fast (considering I feel I have been losing weight faster than normal). Hopefully they are still healthy and can maintain that. Seriously.
3) In any case, I am a loser (in the good sense) and while my journey is slowing down considerably (as I'm near the end, so this bit is the hard bit to lose), I'm pretty happy about myself these days. Which is crazy! It's something, at least. New Weight Watchers may help me get to were I'm going, and I am confident in a way I can keep up with (maintenance wise). Very good so far.
4) We moved our PCs to the basement, and I realize it'll be the middle of summer and I'll be freezing. Perfect, that means I'll actually knit in the summer.
5) A little more Christmas shopping to do, and then done! Just in time, my goodness Christmas is not far now...
6) A little more work and my crazy project will be complete. I just hope to get a promotion (even a tiny one) soon...
This has been a long day (week/month/year/life), but at least I feel like I'm getting back from the edge from earlier. I think a little more knitting may mellow me out.