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Well, today started off really good and stayed pretty good until like.. then of crew but I'll get to that later in the entry. So today I wore all yellow and I loev doing stuff like that..it's fun for me. I even won second place for my outfit at crew. I thank the wig and the yellow bra on top of the yellow shirt for that. So it was captains practice and it was goood. laid back and fun. School was pretty good too. I took the anatomy test and I think I did really well..*knock on wood*.. english was cool as usual and mr. brown was subbing and he went on most of the time about wars and evil women.. it was pretty hilarious actually. well.. I can't think of anything else that happened today but basically school and most of crew was alot of fun. now the down side.. so I wasn't feeling great after crew, i had alot on my mind about tommorow's events and I just kinda secluded myself.. i never really knwo why I do that cause really what I want most in that moment is to be around people but it's like it just happnes, against my will kind of. But anyway I was in a bad mood and it showed in the wrong ways and drove people away which just piled things on and I felt like and idiot cause things happened and I just had this huge urge to start crying so I tried to get out of peoples sight but then I was ok again and then my mom came. I know it's not terrible but it's just one of those things that leave you feel pretty crappy and that's after already feeling crappy. I guess it's cause after it happened I felt like kicking myself and I hateeee that feeling. like seconds after I was just thinking to myself.."ellie your an idiot." It wasn't a big deal though so I'm gonna try no to dwell on it cause that would be stupid and pointless. alright well to end on a happier note my overall grade for the day was like a B / B+ and thats pretty good.