Lately the trends been to crash and burn
Okay, well I'm going to do a random update about my summer. Which started off pretty good, but well has been all downhill lately. Honestly I don't want any sympathy or anything... I'm just going to write a random entry about life...
So before summer started I really wanted to go away for all my tennis tournaments just to get away from a lot of things. When the time rolled around things were finally starting to go good, so I didn't want to leave as bad.. but I was still excited for Florida/Georgia/Alabama. I did real good in the tournaments there but by the time Alabama rolled around I reallllyyyyyy wanted to go home. Seriously I was pretty much going crazy... there was a hurricane coming so we changed our flight to a few days earlier. I was suppose to hang out w/ Pascal.. and his baseball team or something.. but I didn't because my flight was changed to wayy earlier. I came back to see my lovelyyyyyy friendss. But then again I had to leave for another tournament in Virginia Beach.. which was okay.. not bad.. not good.. and well I just wanted to go home soo bad. I've never been homesick in my life before. Not until this summer... but I guess I wanted to go home to see my friends soo bad and well this other random. So when I got home we had a bonfire and such like a couple nights in a row. One of the best nights this summer was Canal Fest! We rented water bikes.. and it was hillarious... and well RIP Lewis Amanda's cell phone because she dropped it into the canal... and welll all i can remember is kerrrplunkkk. Emily went around asking people to play a trivia game.. and asked them if amanda was from Columbia or Spain.. and no matter what they answered they were right.. and she would give the people 25 cents or some kind of change for answering it right. Oh and I think that's the night.. they nicknamed my mom.. yeah my mom's name is now MB and everyone calls her that.. That week was really fun.. and I had a great time... being stupid w/ ppl.. and well hanging out w/ this one random.. but then around Empires.. nothing really started going right.. So it was another week home and I had to leave again.. okay and by this time.. I HATE LEAVING FOR TOURNAMENTS... i absolutely hate it.. i have nothing to do while I'm away.. and it's just spent being bored.. or homesick.. or crying.. okay and now I sound like an emotional wreck.. but i hate it... Usually Empires is extremely fun... but i didn't get much sleep the night before soo the entire bus ride I slept... and we were put on some random campus, w/ out any real good sports... it was all ghetto boxers. Co-ed dorms.. but i mean not that exciting when you're scared some random boxer might rape you or something. We were almost late for opening ceremonies.. but then it got pushed back because it rained... saw lou... and well i don't even want to talk about how that one went... and well hung out w/ the baseball team that night... but i dk.. i didn't even want to be there. weird.. but i didn't and we hung out w/ them another night.. and got hit on by some random kid who played baseball from centrall.. he was really nice but i didn't care that much again. So i got bronze at empires... even tho i could have gotten gold.. but basically i'm just rediculous.. and playing this sport.. that i can't stand right now... and I hung out a bit w/ this kid who does track matt.. and we talked for an hour..I haven't seen that kid in like a year... ohh how I miss him! I think he got back together w/ his ex on the bus.. and it was real cute... and soo since around empires nothing's been going too swell.
And when I'm with him, all I can do is think of you.
So this kid I haven't seen in a long time.. but we talk all the time.. and we're real tight.. he gets real depressed easilly.. but i didn't know until around empires.. that he's been trying to committ suicide.. and well that just made me really upset to see that. And my dad took me out to play tennis like 24/7 even tho he does not process that i do not want to go near the sport right now.. soo we were playing on the red clay courts..and the one corner was really dry.. and i was going to slide... and my whole knee got cut up.. and well I have 3 scars... that will probably be there forever.. it got infected.. and well hurt like a mother.. and i had to get tutored for the math b.. even tho i passed the exam.. my parents wanted me to get better.. because it would change my average to higher.. even tho my final avg. was like a 95.. n so I've been studying a lot.. and all this crap.. and I retook it the other day..and well only got 1 point higher.. and it didn't change my average. So then before that I went to California.. and I didn't want to leave again.. and well things happened... and well soo things were really not going my way.. okay and neways I saw Pascal in the San Diego Zoo but we didn't even talk there even tho we kept talkin how we wanted to meet up.. and we never really did... and all I wanted to do was go home again.. it was a horrible tournament... well not horrible.. i dk..could have been better. And the other day I killed my moms battery on her car cause I left the lights on..and this was the day before I took my road test. So I did pass my road test.. but after I stopped at Britt's house.. and turned off the car and went inside and stuff..and then the car wouldn't start.. soo AAA had to come again.. and he said she needed a whole new battery.. soo we got a new battery. My parents like to yell at me all the time now to clean and stuff... it's pretty sweet... or they call me a dumbass when i do stupid things.. which makes me feel great.. or they like to call me fat... ohh that's great... and well soo I've been home.. and well nothing's really been going on. I've been driving around and such. The italian foreign exchange student is here now.. I dk he's diff.. but the one classic thing that happened was missy taught him how to eat string cheese. Last night was pretty crazy.. I walked around w/ Dan the italian kid to see Missy and Matthew Taylor, and then missy came w/ us, then anton met up, then we all walked to Kriers, and hung out w/ Michelle and Kristi, then walked and met Amanda, and Matt B, and then we all walked to Andersons, and then Amanda's house. I don't really know what happened at Amanda's because Matthew John Agugliaro and I had a good convo on the phone for over an hour about our entire lives... and well he's amazing... oh that brother of mine always knows the right things to say. Amanda and I drove out to Perkins today for breakfast.. and went to Matthew John's house for a bit... and well then picked up Missy and went to Starbucks and now I'm writing this...
oh yeah and one more fun thing in my life... my mom had to take my grandpa to the hospital last night..... and i haven't gotten sleep in who knows how long.. I can't fall asleep until like 5 30 am.. and then wake up at like 8.. I don't know... whenever something goes on it never goes right.. but I love my friends cause we're fools and they make me laugh.. and michelle and I should be tanning basketballs very soon!
"It's like there's no more pain, you just go numb, and you're outside of your body looking at yourself and wondering why does everything have to happen this way?"
Oh and I still have the Stye... and matthew john thinks that it hasn't gone away cause of stress.. it's been like 4 months now....... sweet............................... and highschool tennis practice should be starting up soon.. and i don't want to have to plan for what we're getting and stuff.... ughhhhhhhhhhhh and all my friends are on field hockey...
Well you've been there once or twice and you still don't like it. I say you just never gave it a chance, besides did you ever stop to think. //TBS
Okay well I probably won't update this for a long time. Sooooooooooooooooooo catch ya next time.
In the car, the radio leaves me searching
for your star, a constellation of frustration
Driving hard, singing my thoughts back to
me, and watching heartache on TV.
//Something Corporate