...Sweet Catastrophe...
I'm sure I could have been anybody else....
This is probably going to be a long entry, and some of it I don't really care if you read it or what you think, I just have to say something.
Okay well Thursday I left for Long Island and stayed in Scranton. I saw Gretchen, and it was a great time!!! {{oreos, phone calls, makeup}}lol Before I went down, <3 Louis told me it was like high 60's and sunny the day before but when we got there a rain storm came. Well it rained soooo much while I was there, there were flood warnings, and got prob 10 inches. When I was playing the one match the lights in the bubble were swinging almost hitting the ceiling because the wind gusts went up to 70 mph, and one of the lights fell down earlier and they had to evacuate the place. I bonded w/ my mom... kinda crazy.but Gap is having a sale!! and i got two new pairs of pants...Gap Long and Lean jeans gotta love em.. and resprained my ankle twice this weekend... it was a great time. When we drove home the wallkill river had flooded and people whole back yards were now the river. I've never seen water that high, it was a good 6 feet covering the houses atleast. My mom got soo tired driving home last night I got to drive on the highway for the first time! I drove in the dark, and pouring rain, for about an hour or so!! To end that story I didn't get home until 2 am, and woke up at 6 to get ready, and i'm sick too.... it's a great feeling...
Okay well I won't use names for this, and i really don't care what you think if you read this, and you'll prob know what this is about, but well eff it.
Well nothing goes right, and I screwed someone else I cared for over for something I thought might be really worth some time, but i guess I was wrong. It's always the same girl there to "like" whoever I like, you might think it's coincidence at first, but after like 10 months I'm ready to tell her to get a life. but I'd never actually do that. And I'm not the only person she does this with, and well maybe she actually likes this person.. who knows w/ her... but well maybe she might have not screwed w/ other ppl... because she's hurt a lot of ppl I know already... and i'm wondering when she's going to care for someones feelings...or even be aware. And ppl that say they have been hurt before and put up stupid quotes thinking they relate to their life, when it hasn't at all.... cool real cool... because i can't stand the fake acts.. and i'm not saying i've been put through the worst things, it's just that no one knows except heather.. and well heather i just want to say that you're a great friend and you've been through a lot w/ me. Well anyways I don't really understand why I should try for anything more w/ guys because maybe all I'll be is a good hook up.... soo it's getting me nowhere. and well i know eventually it will turn to i like you... and i'll tell him that i don't, even when i do... because i won't want to make myself vaulnerable again.
Well I thought I was going to write a lot more about that, but I don't want to say some stuff....
Okay soo on top of the obviously great vacation >:- 0 my great aunt Lou died, and honestly I was pretty close to her, and the pope and the bishop, and well as my mom said she's up at the gates of heaven with them. But while i'm on this topic i think it's really disrespectful to put RIP in your profile when someone dies... soo someone please explain how that could truely show respect for the person that died.
And today on top of being sick and getting two hours of sleep I had drivers ed, but the driving part wasn't that bad today because on the topic how i hate boys right now.. lol the only good looking kid in my class is ridicously nice, and funny, and in my care. Well Mike cracked joke... which loosened up some silence in the car, and the girl in my car Lisa is super nice, and well should be a good time, but the classroom part, gag me.. i just want to run out of there....
So then I come home to my dads new sports car, a lotus, which is ridicolous and he's going to get so much attention for it.... great.... not.... and well to the fact that he said I had a horrible tournament even thought i did good, i just didn't win the tournament... and that's the only way i'll ever doo good.....
The only thing I'm really looking forward to is the Windensemble trip to Washington D.C. because I heart my roomies! {{Britt, Heather and Emily}}Who knows what's going to happen this year... especially because they are the best roomies on the whole trip, and we're bringing a grocery store which is just great, cause i'm already majorly obsese but britt and i plan to run whatever we eat off on our down times in the hotel fitness center thank god... looks like i'll be coming home having run a good 30 miles... oh well....
She drifts so far away....
....Going to build her walls up until someone really cares to knock them down, and see what she's about.