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i have realized that i don't have many feelings anymore.
that might be a good thing, because it used to be all bad feelings that i would write about in here.
now i'm just floating through life, taking one day at a time.
i've really been trying to relax and just be happy.
i don't want to stress about who i am, or what i am, what i like, etc.
it's so much easier to just go with whatever, and not worry about a certain image.
i have definitely been more like me than ever before. at least i think and hope so.
i've never been more comfortable in my own skin.
maybe this is what growing up is.
yesterday i was hanging out with a bunch of people, and everyone was laughing, except me. luke asked me if i thought it was funny, and i said yes, and then he said, "i like to believe that you are always laughing on the inside." it was kind of cute. i don't really laugh all that much, and i think luke thinks that i'm not happy or don't have a sense of humor.
tonight i'm sleeping over lindsay's because 2 girls are staying at her house from a chior that's visiting. i really hope i'm friendly and relaxed. i either don't talk when meeting people, or i talk and it's extremely awkward.
that might be a good thing, because it used to be all bad feelings that i would write about in here.
now i'm just floating through life, taking one day at a time.
i've really been trying to relax and just be happy.
i don't want to stress about who i am, or what i am, what i like, etc.
it's so much easier to just go with whatever, and not worry about a certain image.
i have definitely been more like me than ever before. at least i think and hope so.
i've never been more comfortable in my own skin.
maybe this is what growing up is.
yesterday i was hanging out with a bunch of people, and everyone was laughing, except me. luke asked me if i thought it was funny, and i said yes, and then he said, "i like to believe that you are always laughing on the inside." it was kind of cute. i don't really laugh all that much, and i think luke thinks that i'm not happy or don't have a sense of humor.
tonight i'm sleeping over lindsay's because 2 girls are staying at her house from a chior that's visiting. i really hope i'm friendly and relaxed. i either don't talk when meeting people, or i talk and it's extremely awkward.