I AM SO MAD!
so today, meaning friday i go to the hospital to get my blood taken for testing and they took 5 tubes!, and one of the tubes was big! 5 i tell you, bleh i just take it, so more testing and more doctor appointments for me, yeah! umm... no ;o; so i put off blood testing for so long that i had to go today, the first time i got my blood taken i cried and that was just a year and 1/2 ago. i know... i fail D: and omg i am so pissed off right now.
my co-op teacher said to my mother that i have "mental problems", like WTF, that makes me so mad. on thursday, over night we got a foot of snow fall, so in the morning at around whenever, i don't know, my mummy was shoveling snow with my twin sister, i assume this is in the morning like 8 am cause my other sister was there too, and my co-op teacher was walking, the first time ever she walks in weather that has 30cm of snow and she fucking walks, when its a nice and sunny day she chooses to drive, what a weirdo! she also lives a block away from me, so she comes up to my mother and is like, are you ellen's mother, and my mum is like yes, then she starts talking about how i haven't done some assignments that were due in september, i know that was wrong on my part, and i have already talked to her like 3 times about it, but i just prefer to hang out with my friends then do homework, is that a crime, i don't think so.
and my mother doesn't really know what the hell she is talking about, cause she isn't fluent in english, so then she talks to my sister, and my teachers says that ellen is a really nice girl, but she has mental problems, what fucking right does she have saying that about me. i have already talked to my teacher about my assignments, she has a really bad memory, the conversation is always the same, she asks about my family, about my work, and then she goes what is the problem, then i say there is no problem, i know what my flaws are, and i know that i have to work on them, but i just prefer to do other things then homework, and i was being honest with her. i am a really honest person. then my teacher says that "ellen, you are an adult, and i see you as an adult not a kid anymore" and that i should take responsibility and blah, blah, blah, then i am like "ok, i know, i will try harder" the last time i talked to her about this was on tuesday, and then she turns around, and tells my sister that i have mental problems!
like omg, she thinks i have problems, i don't, i am fine, i am actually really happy right now, compared to last year, i don't do drugs, i never have, i would rather work on a friday night then go to a party and get drunk, i have friends, i have hobbies, i have a weird but loveable family, so what if i don't do my homework, so what if i am an honest person, does that mean i have "mental problems"? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i am so mad right now, i am so mad that i just want to drop that co-op just because of her, if she thinks i have mental problems she should tell it to my face, and if she thinks i have mental problems then why am i doing a co-op with a grade 2 class, HUH? she is no doctor so she has no right whatsoever! i am 18 years old, i know i should be more serious about school, and i know that i should be more responsible about spending my money, but i like to have fun, what teenager doesn't? honestly, its like she expects me to be some old lady now, or she thinks that once i am 18 i should immediately turn into an adult, well my teacher has no kids and she isn't married, so what does she know about kids (she is in her mid 40's), obivously nothing! and she was also my teacher for grade 10 math, and that was hell! ahhh... grrr i can't take this anymore, its making me so mad! i am the type of person that will dwell on it, and sometimes hold a grudge, i know that is bad, but i can't help it. i'm fuming right now, cause i keep thinking about it.
also something very off topic, i am watching a different korean show, called "full house" and the guy in it is korean singer bi or rain, whatever his name is, and i think he looks like a porn star, or someone that is on steroids, i'm sorry, like, i like him, he's not a bad looking guy, and he's a fine singer, but when i look at him, i can't help but think that, but hyun bin, is a waaaaayyyy better looking, cooler, and well everything then bi/rain, i really like hyun bin right now! (this post took an hour long to write!)
my co-op teacher said to my mother that i have "mental problems", like WTF, that makes me so mad. on thursday, over night we got a foot of snow fall, so in the morning at around whenever, i don't know, my mummy was shoveling snow with my twin sister, i assume this is in the morning like 8 am cause my other sister was there too, and my co-op teacher was walking, the first time ever she walks in weather that has 30cm of snow and she fucking walks, when its a nice and sunny day she chooses to drive, what a weirdo! she also lives a block away from me, so she comes up to my mother and is like, are you ellen's mother, and my mum is like yes, then she starts talking about how i haven't done some assignments that were due in september, i know that was wrong on my part, and i have already talked to her like 3 times about it, but i just prefer to hang out with my friends then do homework, is that a crime, i don't think so.
and my mother doesn't really know what the hell she is talking about, cause she isn't fluent in english, so then she talks to my sister, and my teachers says that ellen is a really nice girl, but she has mental problems, what fucking right does she have saying that about me. i have already talked to my teacher about my assignments, she has a really bad memory, the conversation is always the same, she asks about my family, about my work, and then she goes what is the problem, then i say there is no problem, i know what my flaws are, and i know that i have to work on them, but i just prefer to do other things then homework, and i was being honest with her. i am a really honest person. then my teacher says that "ellen, you are an adult, and i see you as an adult not a kid anymore" and that i should take responsibility and blah, blah, blah, then i am like "ok, i know, i will try harder" the last time i talked to her about this was on tuesday, and then she turns around, and tells my sister that i have mental problems!
like omg, she thinks i have problems, i don't, i am fine, i am actually really happy right now, compared to last year, i don't do drugs, i never have, i would rather work on a friday night then go to a party and get drunk, i have friends, i have hobbies, i have a weird but loveable family, so what if i don't do my homework, so what if i am an honest person, does that mean i have "mental problems"? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i am so mad right now, i am so mad that i just want to drop that co-op just because of her, if she thinks i have mental problems she should tell it to my face, and if she thinks i have mental problems then why am i doing a co-op with a grade 2 class, HUH? she is no doctor so she has no right whatsoever! i am 18 years old, i know i should be more serious about school, and i know that i should be more responsible about spending my money, but i like to have fun, what teenager doesn't? honestly, its like she expects me to be some old lady now, or she thinks that once i am 18 i should immediately turn into an adult, well my teacher has no kids and she isn't married, so what does she know about kids (she is in her mid 40's), obivously nothing! and she was also my teacher for grade 10 math, and that was hell! ahhh... grrr i can't take this anymore, its making me so mad! i am the type of person that will dwell on it, and sometimes hold a grudge, i know that is bad, but i can't help it. i'm fuming right now, cause i keep thinking about it.
also something very off topic, i am watching a different korean show, called "full house" and the guy in it is korean singer bi or rain, whatever his name is, and i think he looks like a porn star, or someone that is on steroids, i'm sorry, like, i like him, he's not a bad looking guy, and he's a fine singer, but when i look at him, i can't help but think that, but hyun bin, is a waaaaayyyy better looking, cooler, and well everything then bi/rain, i really like hyun bin right now! (this post took an hour long to write!)