whatcha gonna do?! whatcha gonna do when they come for you?! (this song keeps playing in my head..BAD BOYS, kick-ass movie!)
first things, i ditched my daizee-making craftworx. i got bored! i must have "ADD" or i am just damn fickle!! i don't know what i'll find next to divulge myself with but i'm sure i'll be doing lots in maybe..uh...3 months time. i've been terribly busy. i've lost my artistic drive, feel like i'm not creative these days and it really bugs me!! 20plus something crisis wherein i wanna do the many things i love but i can't seem to have it my way cos' i'm perpetually sucked into a tunnel of paperwork and everything that deals with my present career in foreign affairs..and so and so..bah!!
everythings been placed at a HALT. my school in design, my art, my songs, my writing, etc. it seems even our plans to put up the t-shirt business might have to wait. that's life..i am partially impatient these days..its just the STRESS...and everything that comes with it. it totally comes down to pursuing my dreams in the long run and sucking it in for now. yep, that's it. nothing comes easy and you have to act upon it, make the decisions, know what's right for you and sacrifice for something better.
WELL, ENOUGH OF dreary things.
one things for sure, i am going to get my dream vacation next summer, no matter what. that i am looking forward to!! a whole month away from all the drab sad things of this world. US/EUROPE viaje here i come, and well MOROCCO, South Africa is an additional feat, of course! still thinking of alternative routes just in case something comes up, so we also have GREECE and MEXICO as possible stops. it will be lovely with friends and family close by. plus, i wanna watch all the broadway plays i missed out on. i am a fan! i must not get too excited about it though, its still very early in the year. so i'll just smile.
speaking of travel my grandma, on my dad's side (i really need to explain these things cos' we're quite a large family) is celebrating her birthday this 17th of May and it seems she'll be treating all our parents to a trip to Shanghai, CHINA. Great for them, what's left for us kids? but hey, it means NO PREPARATIONS or PLANS for us since there won't be any extravagant event for her 82nd. even if there was a party i wouldn't quite be able to attend everything since i have work! and i'm not taking any days of VL this year. i'm saving it for next year ;) i may have some sunshine coming my way this august, if only i could get people to come with me on the long weekend..at the end of the month. i plan to travel either to THAILAND or MALAYSIA. my sis and i have plans to travel around the world someday. i know anything's possible if you just believe...in yourself, in others, and in GOD. (we want to join a cruise ship or continue the legacy of CISV which is children's int'l. summer village).
things in my life are always pending so here are a few that just seem to come rolling in veryyyyy SLOWLY...
- fashion design school (in 2 yrs time, hopefully less)
- tshirt business (till Aug. target, this may be reduced to less people on
investment i'm afraid)
- music lessons; guitar & piano (next year)
- driving lessons (till mid year, this is long overdue)
- writing & composition (till mid year, i'm still finding inspiration)
- art (same with writing & composition)
- part time job at mobile1, sales (still waiting for them to call me for the
interview)
- purchase of new chuck taylor's high-cut & low-cut style, black charriol
watch bracelet, black travelling boots knee & ankle length (all within this
year), ipod 20giga & ibook g4, acoustic guitar with plug-in (next year)
- application of my social security, philhealth, BIR, & TIN i.d.'s (within
this year)
- new hairstyle, waves & bangs (within this year)
- huge garage sale, i really need to dispose of things i hardly use anymore
(next month)
- B+C first aid kit brigade, HELP get CHILDREN off THE STREETS!!! (starting
next month)
- SFC, spiritual guidance calls me (next month)
- transcript of records & diploma, seriously i need to fix this! (next month)
- general check-up, spec. a trip to the gynecologist..ehe it ain't funny!
(within the year)
- continous practice of the Spanish Language..i need to brush up! its
humiliating to work for the Embassy and not know their language (all through
out like i said)
- Foreign Service Exam..doesn't hurt to try (this year)
- my surfing (as soon as i get a long break or weekend)
.....YEAH, its a pretty long list. with much and enthusiasm and cheer i shall get them DONE!!
the only thing that hasn't changed and still feels like 2nd skin is listening to music i love and the constant appreciation for read. and well the never-ending admiration for the movies is not to be taken for granted. i was thinking aside from all this i want to do something nice for my parents' anniversary this upcoming August. maybe with our powers combined..HAHA (meaning my brother, sis, and I) we could scrunge up enough cash to send them off to somewhere exotic in Asia. they both need it!!
we'll see what happens.
i thought of investing on children's books too. to create an imaginative world for my future offspring, heehee. such as those of dr. seuss and roald dahl. theories of investing on educational and insurance plans..hmm, maybe when i've chosen a good husband. (hell yeah, i am thinking..but its real hard when your a woman in a man's world). to the feminists, no pun intended. i don't even have a steady boyfriend. its not a priority now that's why. plus i'm real picky! i hope for a musically talented, artistic, generous, humble, forgiving, patient, raised with modest values, pious but intellectual man by my side till death do us part. (i know, is there such a man?!) i'll find him, and when i do i'll know he's the one.
whoa, i've strayed a long way ei!! my mind wanders, that's what make a great traveller. HAHA!! yesterday i watched BE COOL, another sequel to Danny Devito's Pulp Fiction & Get Shorty. hilarous..the ROCK was funny. i'm glad he's taking on different roles now. i've gained weight and no exercise, i don't wanna lecture myself so blah-blah..although i am on a so-called eating right regimen (no pork or beef, laying off that stuff)..LOST is my favorite t.v. mini series, it's caught my attention. i've got a new man to rave about aside from my adoringly cute hubby (hehe kidding), Robert Carmine..and that is actor/writer turned director Zach Braff. he is totally amaziiinggg! i loved garden state, i like scrubs, can't wait for the next one to hit me. he just inspires.
i like seeing this young artists today make use of valuable time. it wasn't like before that it would just be all about entertainment.