It's been a long time...
since I rocked and rolled...but also since I updated my journal for real. I know you are all wondering when it was that I fell off the face of the livejournal world, and to tell the truth I can't really pinpoint an exact date. But it was probably around the same time I was introduced to myspace. Anyway, what's going on in my life you ask? Stress! I just got an acceptance letter from bowling Green State University and it's got me all fucked up. What the hell do I want to do with my life? I'm not gonna go spending all my parent's money just to end up doing something I hate and wondering how I got where I am in 30 years. Also, I know it's only a couple hours away, but I'm reeeeally tight with my family. I think it would be really hard for me to be away from them. And my friends! I mean, Jordan will be in Kalamazoo which is gonna be really hard since she's one of my best friends. I was relieved to hear that Shannon thinks she'll be staying here today, but now what if I go to Ohio? Jazlyn will obviously be in Michigan until she goes to Chicago, Shannon will be in Michigan, and Jordan will be in Michigan but even further away if I'm in Ohio. Blah. It's all too hard. I'm not cut out for this world. I wish I could just curl up into a little Ellen fetus and go to sleep. I hate to admit that I'm a person who feels really uneasy about change. (Why am I a democrat??) I mean...in my personal life I guess. I get too comfortable and complacent and that's a bad thing I think because it's important to get out of your comfort zone. I don't think people should ever become too comfortable with where they are. And here I am clinging to Michigan like it's my inner tube in the crashing ocean that is the world. That could possibly be the stupidest fucking thing I've ever said, but it's true. I looooove Michigan!! I love Royal Oak and Ferndale! I love this place man. I used to hate it when I was a kid because I wanted to be an actress and I was really dramatic, but now I just want to stay here forever.
Anyway, aside from all that...nothing much new. Except that I'm getting a tattoo in 2 weeks. YAY! But don't tell my family because they have no idea and they would try to stop me. Ummmmmmm....report cards came today. Honor roll (yay!) Not too bad I guess. But it makes me regret that I didn't start to apply myself until it was too late. Sometimes I wish I could repeat high school and realize how much I could be. I'm not stupid believe it or not. It's been said again and again, but it's the friggin truth: I never applied myself. Damn. Forget it! No regrets!!
Anyway, aside from all that...nothing much new. Except that I'm getting a tattoo in 2 weeks. YAY! But don't tell my family because they have no idea and they would try to stop me. Ummmmmmm....report cards came today. Honor roll (yay!) Not too bad I guess. But it makes me regret that I didn't start to apply myself until it was too late. Sometimes I wish I could repeat high school and realize how much I could be. I'm not stupid believe it or not. It's been said again and again, but it's the friggin truth: I never applied myself. Damn. Forget it! No regrets!!