well.....

[ellen_is_a_g]

SO! ___ comes to my house unexpectedly and tells me to get dressed because we're going out for the night. Me, being the dumbshit that I am, gets all excited and looked DANG CUTE for just throwing something on. I jump in the car and we're off. Had a couple of stop-bys and what not then end up at the qfc parking lot. Well, ___ leaves me in his car and drives off in someone elses because he had to go some where fast. So I sit there with my buddy kayle and I am confused because this boy just left me in his car... At this point in the night there is me and kayle in ___'s car, and another car next to us with girls in it. SOOO... ___ comes back with an extra person in the vehicle, a lady friend. Why could ____ not have just TOLD me where he was going in the first place. So, for some reason I get a slight hint of jealousy (which is really rare for me) and end up not even talking to___ when he gets back. So I take TWO SECONDS and call wick to explain my night... I cross the street, and I look over and everyone has hoped into their cars AND LEAVES! THEY DRIVE RIGHT PAST ME! I was so shocked that this could actually happen, thinking, "ok, well they'll be right back", or they're just kidding. BUT NO! they straight DRIVE OFF WITHOUT ME! I literally dont know what to do, I am stranded in the qfc parking lot all by myself with a t-shirt and flip-flops. I was dying... OH! Not to mention all the creepy-ass teenage boys and mexican men driving by whistling and waving... I was going to shoot someone. So I'm still on the phone with wick and I have to call my dad to get a ride home. I dont even know what went on in my head, I was just so confused and hurt that I couldnt say anything.
Its not just the fact that I was left alone in a dark parking lot, mistakes happen and I understand that... it will probably be something to laugh at later. But that fact that I was truly enjoying this ___ boy, it kind of got to me. I know everyone's sorry and I'm totaly fine now, shit happens... but I just felt so rejected and crushed that theres no way I can crush on this ___ boy anymore. I am not the type of girl to let things like this blow over me. There have been many instances where I get so excited to hangout with him and then I am completely ignored. But I suppose it has just been in my mind that this boy would like to hangout not just as friends... but there I go again being a dumbshit.
So, the moral of this story (to myself) is to just let things happen on their own.
Goodnight, I am mentaly exhauted. Hopefully I'll sleep this thing off and I will now go watch Ace Ventura with my dada