quick
Just a quick update.
Basically I've hit the downside of my cycle and so I've been busy scrabbling to try and keep ahead of the emotional carnage that will no doubt ensue shall I fall...
I've only been marginally successful. It's been a rough few days. I had a dream about my mother and woke up crying. Coming home from college and I started crying. Kevin says something to me that I take the wrong way and I cry. I listened to a particular song today and started crying. Alex Grey's pictures reminded me of my egoloss trip and I started crying. I hate feeling so vulnerable.
But that is me. The one good thing about my perpetual moodiness is that I feel.
October 16th I am doing Ayahuasca, and let me say, I am ready to approach this as a healing medicine. In one of my dreams last night, I was doing Ayahuasca in a church and I remember myself saying, "Psychedelics don't always give me what I want, but they always give me what I need."
So true. I think it means something that I said that in a dream about Aya.
Basically I've hit the downside of my cycle and so I've been busy scrabbling to try and keep ahead of the emotional carnage that will no doubt ensue shall I fall...
I've only been marginally successful. It's been a rough few days. I had a dream about my mother and woke up crying. Coming home from college and I started crying. Kevin says something to me that I take the wrong way and I cry. I listened to a particular song today and started crying. Alex Grey's pictures reminded me of my egoloss trip and I started crying. I hate feeling so vulnerable.
But that is me. The one good thing about my perpetual moodiness is that I feel.
October 16th I am doing Ayahuasca, and let me say, I am ready to approach this as a healing medicine. In one of my dreams last night, I was doing Ayahuasca in a church and I remember myself saying, "Psychedelics don't always give me what I want, but they always give me what I need."
So true. I think it means something that I said that in a dream about Aya.