CAN'T CONCENTRATE!!!!

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I am supposed to be studying right now for the mother of all fucking civics exams 2morrow which will most likely decide if I pass or fail!!! I can't concentrate at all!

Man I'm stupid! Why did I write all that shit about Dave! I'm so embarrassed!:(
Now everybody's gonna see what a sap I am cuz Dan read my journals!!! EEEK! And Dave will just think I'm a freaky little girl stalking him! Oh no! I hope he doesn't read them! But then again I kind of do... so he knows how I strongly I feel... I'm scared though! :(

Now I'm talking to Julianna about changing appearances haha! Wow! Got a little off topic of civics eh?! Sara says she's got to tell me something but it's a surprise and I am so clueless and excited!!! Yay! Wait... I hope it's good! Haha! It sounds like it will be! :D

When I woke up this morning I felt so shitty. I've found I've felt that way most mornings lately. I just don't want to go to school. I feel like giving up. I don't know what to do with myself! Once I get to school it's not so bad but I don't know!

Feelin CrrrrAy-Z!!!! The usual smooch and squeeze for all! Luv luv luv!