I'm in a rut.

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I went on my porch if only to escape this room that was storing up all of my negativity. I called Mat, hoping that he could make time for me, which he couldn't. We spoke for about three seconds, and I couldn't hear him. I think I gathered that he was at Asher's and he would call me later if he remembered, to tell me something that he couldn't tell me then. I hung up and tried Lily, no luck. I then decided to leave my house and and take a walk. A year ago I would have been sneaking out with Mariel in a car and having an unpredictably good time. Now I was taking a walk, just me and my blue cup. The buzzing of the air conditioners sang to me as I photographed my late night escapades.






I was invisible.


I said hi to a car, but it passed.


So, I took a sip.


And sat by a broken swing.

I used to have a bunch of people to call, now I have none. Dammit.