this and that.
I definitely feel like I'm losing all control. What do you do when you want something so bad, and you are positive that it will make you happy, but. Nevermind. I hate complaining. I hate that nothing comes easily for me-- but I've gotten through it before.
I wrote him a letter today; it was sweet and let me release feelings that couldn't be let out otherwise. I made a homemade envelope in art class and I put the letter inside, sealing it and taking a sigh of relief.
I feel like a bubble of emotion. Everything seems so odd and yet so right. I strangely feel as if this is what is supposed to be happening, but just like always, my mind contradicts itself by also forcing worries down my throat.
I sit here at my desk surrounded by 4 empty vitamin water bottles, a small box of fruit loops, and various electronics, and wonder if there will come a moment when I am laying by him, breathing softly and realize: this is definitely where I am meant to be. And the worries cease to continue.
I wrote him a letter today; it was sweet and let me release feelings that couldn't be let out otherwise. I made a homemade envelope in art class and I put the letter inside, sealing it and taking a sigh of relief.
I feel like a bubble of emotion. Everything seems so odd and yet so right. I strangely feel as if this is what is supposed to be happening, but just like always, my mind contradicts itself by also forcing worries down my throat.
I sit here at my desk surrounded by 4 empty vitamin water bottles, a small box of fruit loops, and various electronics, and wonder if there will come a moment when I am laying by him, breathing softly and realize: this is definitely where I am meant to be. And the worries cease to continue.