Leader's Choice / Chapter 12 -
Title : Leader's Choice
Pairing : YunJae
Genre : Romance, Drama
Rating : PG13
Chapter : 12/13
Author : ellecho
Summary : What could possibly make YunHo break JaeJoong’s heart and leave him in the deep ocean of tears and pain?who could ruin our YunJae couple with just appearing so far? what could it be?“Love,First Love,Love,Pregnancy,Love”
More from Author : Let's forget about separeted TVXQ and pretend nothing happened. In this fan fiction, Our DBSK is not separeted, but they do live in different houses.
Chapter 12
~Rain~
"What are you gonna do?" Seunghi washed her t-shirt from blood in faucet.
Jaejoong stood behind the opened door, resting his back on the wall,hands crossed.
"You will stay here for now," He stared into the wall against him,not even blinking, "Then, If you want we'll move somewhere else, If he comes ag-"
"He won't." Sighed she, Jaejoong blinked "He won't come here. I know him."
"I thought I knew him too, but he hit a pregnant woman,"
"He wanted to hit you." she turned off the water,
"Is that an excuse?"
Seunghi stepped out of the bathroom and rested her back on the wall which was against Jaejoong,
"You're not the one who's pregnant, he mentally hit you." She spoke so sadly as if someone who's very close to her died.
"That is not an excuse,"
"Why are you so stubborn? don't you understand you're being selfish? I don't blame Yunho, I only pity him, for being with someone so stubborn like you."
Jaejoong blinked and stared at her, then looked away
"Then why are you here? why are you with me? go and be with him, go and comfort him-"
"I'm here because of your child, Me, myself am not scared of Yunho, but your child is."
"Why do you call it 'my child' only? isn't it-"
"No, It's not."
Both stayed quiet, until Seunghi's loud sigh broke the silence, She went to her bedroom to get some sleep.
Seems like Seunghi was right, Yunho never showed up, didn't even call.He didn't show up on repetitions, manager told the rest of the members that he asked for some solo schedule.
Jaejoong has become a different person, he no longer talked with Yuchun, nor Changmin, Nor Junsu. he'd thought a lot about What has happened.
Month passed.
It was a rainy day, Rainy but not cold at all.Jaejoong was sitting on the sofa, staring extinct TV - thinking.
Nothing could fill the emptiness in his heart, nothing and no one. He thought of the reasons why he wanted this child to be born so badly? Maybe because he'd lost trust in Yunho, He thought Yunho would leave him at every possible chance.. He thought that he'd have someone precious, Someone who would love him naturally, whom else than his own son? But now, He needed no one, but Yunho. If someone should loose trust for another, Shouldn't this someone be 'Yunho'? He remembered himself promising, that He needed no one else than Yunho, he'd give up everything for his love towards Yunho.
Here he was. Thinking, that maybe..somehow.. He was kind of wrong.. But this 'wrong way' was the only way he could choose now. This child was not a mistake, but making this child was, absolutely.
Maybe, If this child wouldn't exist, No one would have problems, no one would get hurt.
Sound of shutting door broke the silence and interrupted Jaejoong's thoughts.
Steps got closer very slowly, he looked at the door with strained attention. Seunghi entered the living room, walking really very slowly.
She was all wet, eyes teary, no emotion on her face. She hugged her bag very tigh,
"What's wrong?"
Seunghi stood still,quiet. Not moving anymore.
"you got wet? Didn't I tell you to take an umb-"
Until he finished his words,she threw umbrella on the floor, it was wet too.
"What happened to you?" Asked he in deeper voice and furrowed his eyebrows.
Seunghi didn't answer, she kept her head down, staring at the floor, with empty gaze. Jaejoong was about to leave to get her some towels, but her voice stopped him.
"I fell down." Said she and looked at him, Jaejoong's heart skipped a bit. He turned to face her, She looked right into his eyes.
"Where?" he started breathing heavily,
"on the stairs, when I left the mall."
"How?'' He ran closer and analysed his body with tones of gazes finding any place that might hurt
"Really...really badly." Jaejoong didn't wait for a long time, He grabbed his jacket, a car key and made her follow him,
He took her to the hospital, saying it was his very close friend ( because some stalkers followed them).
As they sat in the hall, Nurse walked to them and called out a bit loudly
"Park Seung Hi?"
"It's us!" Jaejoong stood up first, and helped her,She looked miserable, lost, she didn't really know what to do, what to say or where to look.
"Listen" Jaejoong hugged her very tigh. "They are only going to check if your baby got hurt or not, It's going to be okay, I'm here. Whatever happens, I'm here." He kissed her forehead and let her follow the nurse.
Jaejoong waited for 30 minutes. How strange this was, once he thought he didn't need a child at all, child almost died. Was his desire to have a child the only thing that kept the baby safe? His cellphone rang. He answered it immediately
"yes, hyung?"
"Jaejoong-ah, where are you? practice started so long ago," It was his manager, angry.
"Ah, hyung, I'm in the hospital."
"Hospital?Are you alright?"
"Yes,yes..my sister got injured." lied he, Manager didn't actually know about Seunghi.
"I understand but this practice is very important, You have to be here!"
"But hyung-"
"NOW!" growled manager and hanged up.
Jaejoong ran to the closes reception and searched for any nurses
"Hey, Um, Can you please tell my friend I was told to leave and I'm very sorry? Tell her I'll see her later for sure..Or ask her to call me when she's at home."
"Your friend?"
"Seunghi, Park Seunghi, She's in X-ray room, Can you? Please?"
Woman nodded, he ran like crazy, drove to the studio, dressed back in the car and ran upstairs, no one noticed his enterance. Everyone was already dancing.
Jaejoong's eyes got wide open, It was Yunho standing and helpin everyone with the dance. It was Yunho. He got back his mirotic hairstyle.. and looked awesome.
Jae's heart skipped a bit, He stared. He missed this image too badly, He ran and joined, not talking with him, only staring, younger man didn't even look back but that was enough for Jaejoong. He suddenly felt how emptiness in his heart got filled, he almost forgot.. no, he forgot everything around, he only looked at Yunho.
"Good job everyone," Clapped everyone, Some grabbed towels, some grabbed glasses. Backup dancers took their training bags and left together, laughing all the way out. Yuchun forced Changmin and Junsu to leave 'Yunjae' alone.
Yunho was still refining some dancing moves above the mirror, as he saw Jaejoong's reflexion in it, he stopped and looked back,
"Oh, It's you." Smiled he, randomly.
"It's me." Smiled Jae shyly and looked down.
"How have you been, hyung?"
Jaejoong stopped breathing for a second. What the hell did he just hear? Yunho called him hyung? He never used to, His smile quickly faded away
"I'm been fine,Yunho. and you?"
"I'm fine." smirked younger man, and looked away. "I'll be leaving now, Excuse me." He passed Jae.
Jaejoong didn't move, he heard how Yunho took steps to the door and all of the sudded he shouted
"Yunho,wait!"
Yunho turned to face him, "Yes?"
"No, I just.. wanted to say.. I missed the rest of the practice..This was unresponsible, It will never happen again, I only...wanted to say..this."
Yunho turned his whole body. there was a 10 meters distance between them.
"Is that... all you wanted to tell me?" Yunho looked up to the roof still smiling, Jaejoong didn't understand his movements and gestures at all.
He wasn't able to pronaunce, he only shook his head weakly, like a shy high school girl.
As an answer, Yunho nodded "Okay then," Fixed his hair and again faced the door.
"I need you." Said Jaejoong loudly, but very calmly "I miss you, I want you, I love you, I can't live without you. I don't need anyone else but you, I will sell my soul to devil for staying with you forever."
Yunho didn't move, his face was emotionless
"Is that all?"
"and I'm sorry." Warm tears escaped Jaejoong's eyes, but his face didn't change.
Yunho didn't answer, He opened the door and left.
Seems like Yunho didn't love him anymore. Jaejoong sat down on the floor.
He didn't know why, But he felt like singing.
"Kimi wa doko ni ite...Dare to doko ni ite...Donna fuku wo kite..Nani shite waratterun darou?.." He wiped his tears, stood up and left.
He parked his car near his house, came out in the rain, without an umbrella,He got all wet until he stood near the door searching for keys, when he found them, they fell down, but he didn't move to pick them up.. He closed his eyes and hit the door with forhead.
"Yunho..." whispered he to himself, he froze like this for several minutes, then he picked up the keys, opened the door and entered the house.
he dropped the keys right on the floor, so did he with the jacket. House was all quiet, so he heart raindrops from the outside.
"Seunnghi-ah?" Shouted he, but no one answered him "Ah..she didn't come y.." He noticed a little not on the glass table above the sofa.
His hand was trembling as he opened it. It was written with very beutiful handwriting, almost perfect.
' Dear Jaejoong,
your baby's gone. I'm sorry.
no, I'm not only sorry for this. I'm sorry that my appereance caused you so much pain. I'm sorry for ruining your life. You're a very kind person Jaejoong-ah, I wish I meet someone with as warm personality as yours, once in the future. I want to apologize to Yunho too, for messing up hislife and his relationship. I'm sorry for separating you.
For now, I promise you, you will never see me again, please don't search for me,You won't find me anyway.
yours faithfuly, Park Seung Hi.
P.S. They actually said it was a girl.'
As Jaejoong finished reading the letter, door shutting sound broke the silence.He stared at the figue that soon entered the living room.
Yunho looked around and stopped his gaze at Jaejoong's hand. Jaejoong fisted his hand and smashed the paper in his hands.
"She texted me." Sighed Yunho and thew a weak smile.Jaejoong dropped the paper and let a tear escape his eye. Yunho stood in distance.
"you're late, she left already." whispered Jaejoong, crying. Yunho didn't listen to him, he came closer and hugged his Jaejoongie very tigh,
Jaejoong stood in shock. He'd missed this touch so much, He'd missed this smell so much, He hugged Yunho and cried his heart out. He grasped Yunho's t-shirt so much it hurt his fingers. As if he'd never let go of him,
"It's okay, you can cry." Yunho comforted him,caressed his hair "Keep in mind that I'm here," he whispered into his ear,with deep and calming voice "I'm here and I love you,I also.. can't live without you, Boo."
Jaejoong didn't say anything, he responded as his hug became more and more powerful, Yunho lifted up his jaw and made older man face him, Jaejoong stared at Yunho's lips and licked his owns.
"I'm sorry about the baby, I know it hurts, I understand." Yunho teased Jaejoong as he moved few inches back from his face, not letting Jae reach his lips.
"I think, " Jae looked right into his eyes, He stepped too close to Yunho, he couldn't move back anymore, Jae's eyes and voice were full of killing pain, "my child feels better where she is right now."
"and where is it?"
Jaejoong analysed Yunho's face, neck and chest with gazes, Then he gently touches younger man's neck with his fingers, How much he had missed this feeling.. Yunho's sesetive skin responded with a shiver, Jae got closer , he let his lower lip draw a wet line on the neck, until his lips reached Yunho's ear. He breathed out all the pain he had, "In heaven." Jaejoong backed a bit as his lips glued on Yunho's. Yunho responded and deepened the kiss letting his tongue slip into jaejoongs mouth. Soft moan escaped Jaejoong's mouth, He held yunho's face with both hands, not letting him go, They took a quick-deep-breathe and continued the kiss, until Yunho's lips slid down on Jaejoongie's neck leaving red bitmarks on it. His hands went down, from Jaejoong's waist to Jaejoongs hips, He lifted him up - Jaejoong's legs crossed around Yunho's waist.
"Shouldn't you be kind of..broken?" said Yunho between kissed
"I've suffered too much.. we've suffered, all I need now is you!" Jae let words escape his mouth with heavy breathe on Yunho's ear,
"you're my whore after all," said Yunho half joking, Jaejoong remembered the day that hurt his memories the most, the day when they had their biggest fight ever,
"Oh yes I am!" whispered Jaejoong and bit Yunho's lower lip.
As many painful thoughts of the child he'd been waiting for popped up in his head, as much passion he put in kissed and touches. While Yunho thought, that maybe death of his child didn't cause him much pain, but Jae did suffer a lot, Two biggest feelings fought inside of him. The pain he felt because of the one who got away, and the pain he felt missing love of his life, his another half.
This may seem easy, Yes. 'Look at that Jaejoong,now that he has no problems with the child and his conscientiousness is not questioned anymore he can go and be with Yunho again, like nothing happened'. No. That's not it. He haven't forgot the pain.. He never did since the second he read the 'deathe line' in the letter.
Nothing went easier, Just that Jaejoong knew, His child would feel way better where she was now, Seunghi would be happy where she was, Yunho wouldn't suffer from this anymore, Everyone would leave in peace and comfort with feelings.
as time passed, All the smiles returned. Smiled of all five members, As everything seemed perfect now.
Nothing could ever break DBSK up, nothing.