I AM happy.... why won't you believe me?
It's not so much that I'm bothered that people who were once my closest friends have learned to live life without me... for that I am thankful. What causes me the pain is that they go about living by pretending I was never there.
I do not understand why me defining the portion of the "coping technique of others" that bothers me the most is any sort of indication of a negitive state of mind. I assure you I am no more upset over anything now than I was before and I'd rather define and discover why I feel bothered by the actions of others in the beginning than let them go on bothering me. This isn't a new technique for me. If I feel strongly bothered about something I prefer to determine why so I can defuse its power over me and turn any sadness into understanding. That - only hours ago - was a strong turning point for me.
I have moved on. Have no fear.
Just because my coping technique is different than yours and involves me not pretending people who mattered to me don't exist anymore does not make it any less effective or make me any more upset up over our parting. I will never pretend people who have walked out of my life did not leave footprints in my heart. I wouldn't want to. That is not who I am. Everyone matters.
I will never forget a friend.
I will never pretend they didn't exist.
I will still talk of them fondly when fond memories occur.
I really don't think that is a bad thing and I am having trouble understanding why people seem to think it is.
Maybe because they prefer blocking out old memories and letting them create a huge void in their lives which they are then forced to fill with bitterness or resentment until someone else comes along. I'm not a bitter person. I'd rather embrace the past happiness and allow it to spill over into my future.
I believe there is something better out there for all of us -- for both of us. I do not wish harm upon my friends. I want them to be happy too.
I do not understand why me defining the portion of the "coping technique of others" that bothers me the most is any sort of indication of a negitive state of mind. I assure you I am no more upset over anything now than I was before and I'd rather define and discover why I feel bothered by the actions of others in the beginning than let them go on bothering me. This isn't a new technique for me. If I feel strongly bothered about something I prefer to determine why so I can defuse its power over me and turn any sadness into understanding. That - only hours ago - was a strong turning point for me.
I have moved on. Have no fear.
Just because my coping technique is different than yours and involves me not pretending people who mattered to me don't exist anymore does not make it any less effective or make me any more upset up over our parting. I will never pretend people who have walked out of my life did not leave footprints in my heart. I wouldn't want to. That is not who I am. Everyone matters.
I will never forget a friend.
I will never pretend they didn't exist.
I will still talk of them fondly when fond memories occur.
I really don't think that is a bad thing and I am having trouble understanding why people seem to think it is.
Maybe because they prefer blocking out old memories and letting them create a huge void in their lives which they are then forced to fill with bitterness or resentment until someone else comes along. I'm not a bitter person. I'd rather embrace the past happiness and allow it to spill over into my future.
I believe there is something better out there for all of us -- for both of us. I do not wish harm upon my friends. I want them to be happy too.