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so a lot has gone on in the past couple of weeks. all my entries have been short and haven't clarified anything. mostly because im sure people dont care about my problems, and i dont want to spread my turmoil among my livejournal friends. maybe only to the ones i dont know very well.
ive been having more anxiety and depression problems, so i have to go back into counseling which blows a huge load. i get bored of it really easily. but hey, im not paying for it. as long as my parents feel the need to support me and spend money on me, whatever. i still want to move out really bad though, and i don't believe that will be happening any time soon.
i have a lot of guy troubles. i dont know why, i dont know how, i think im a pretty cool person. i dont know what happens when things end. i just like to be informed of whats going on, the no talking/no calling situation just doesn't work for me. it just really pisses me off.
i dont like my job and i want to quit, but its good money and i know how to do everything so its easy.
i start my classes on august 28th at SMCC. im taking philosophy, developmental psych, college algebra, and 20th century lit. i have classes on mwf only so its not so bad, but i suck at managing my time and getting assignments done. oh and actually going to class, i have a nasty habit of skipping.
i am horrible at managing my money. i spend way to much on a lot of shitty things that i dont need. i spend a lot of my money on food, when i can just go home and eat it for free. (even though my parents never supply food, because, they suck) my brother still owes me money, and i also spend a lot of money on my friends. i need to stop offering to pay for things... it just makes me stressed out a lot.
im going to texas on aug 15 and i can not fucking wait to get out of maine and just chill where i dont know anyone and can hopefully make some new friends. or at least just hang out with drew and her sister. i want to be able to relax and not have to worry about anything. the only thing i know ill be worrying about is money. in texas ill be worrying about how much money i should spend and what to spend it on. oy, hopefully i can contain my shopping urges.
theres been some friend drama going on and it doesn't want to end. it decides to just keep going and pushing the limit. seriously. ugh.
i went $179 over on my phone bill last month. i know exactly the person i talked to so much that had my bill go that high, and now we dont even talk anymore because, like i said above, he doesnt want to talk to me. he doesnt want to tell me whats going on. christ.
i really want to be rich.
i had today and i have tomorrow off. im going to the show in lewiston and i cant wait to see heather.
a lot of people suck though.
i guess ill just work my ass off until i leave for texas. then come home. spend more money on books. start classes. work a lot. go to counseling, have my 19th birthday and then die of exhaustion. this semester is going to be a kick in my ass.
oh and fuck you money.
ive been having more anxiety and depression problems, so i have to go back into counseling which blows a huge load. i get bored of it really easily. but hey, im not paying for it. as long as my parents feel the need to support me and spend money on me, whatever. i still want to move out really bad though, and i don't believe that will be happening any time soon.
i have a lot of guy troubles. i dont know why, i dont know how, i think im a pretty cool person. i dont know what happens when things end. i just like to be informed of whats going on, the no talking/no calling situation just doesn't work for me. it just really pisses me off.
i dont like my job and i want to quit, but its good money and i know how to do everything so its easy.
i start my classes on august 28th at SMCC. im taking philosophy, developmental psych, college algebra, and 20th century lit. i have classes on mwf only so its not so bad, but i suck at managing my time and getting assignments done. oh and actually going to class, i have a nasty habit of skipping.
i am horrible at managing my money. i spend way to much on a lot of shitty things that i dont need. i spend a lot of my money on food, when i can just go home and eat it for free. (even though my parents never supply food, because, they suck) my brother still owes me money, and i also spend a lot of money on my friends. i need to stop offering to pay for things... it just makes me stressed out a lot.
im going to texas on aug 15 and i can not fucking wait to get out of maine and just chill where i dont know anyone and can hopefully make some new friends. or at least just hang out with drew and her sister. i want to be able to relax and not have to worry about anything. the only thing i know ill be worrying about is money. in texas ill be worrying about how much money i should spend and what to spend it on. oy, hopefully i can contain my shopping urges.
theres been some friend drama going on and it doesn't want to end. it decides to just keep going and pushing the limit. seriously. ugh.
i went $179 over on my phone bill last month. i know exactly the person i talked to so much that had my bill go that high, and now we dont even talk anymore because, like i said above, he doesnt want to talk to me. he doesnt want to tell me whats going on. christ.
i really want to be rich.
i had today and i have tomorrow off. im going to the show in lewiston and i cant wait to see heather.
a lot of people suck though.
i guess ill just work my ass off until i leave for texas. then come home. spend more money on books. start classes. work a lot. go to counseling, have my 19th birthday and then die of exhaustion. this semester is going to be a kick in my ass.
oh and fuck you money.