I'm sorta back!!!
Well, where to begin.............
I'm not going to ramble for too long.
I have been gone for a bit. A rather long time actually. I have moved in with my boyfriend in the last 6 months which makes it hard to get on here. I'm constantly sneaking and reading everyones journal entries trying to get some sort of normalcy back. When I'm here with you guys I tend to stay on track. I'm always looking over my shoulder though. It is making me incredibly paranoid lol.......sad......
I'm not doing great with my weight lose. Im getting totally off track. I have had maybe 6 family dinners recently (b-days), NOT including all the X-Mas ones. I don't need to see my family that often. My grandparents have made a few comments here and there, under their breath. It is soooo annoying. "You need to eat more, you're too skinny" HUH... are they on crack??? I understand that we all think we are fat here or just not skinny but I really am not that skinny. In fact I am in the normal range for my height. It pisses me off. I could easily lose 10 more pounds and look fine. In fact that's what I plan on doing. What are they going to say then?? I was literaly up until 5am thinking about this stupid shit. I'm even more self conscious now then I was before. I'm not happy with my weight and I definitely want NEED to lose this weight fast but I also feel like everyone is always staring...ahhhhhhhh. What would be something one would say to a retarded comment of that sort?? I don't want to come off defensive, I find that that might sound like I'm hiding something.
Ok Ok I'm done for now. I guess I shouldn't have said I wasn't going to ramble. I have a lot more to talk about, later I guess.
Later Girls............
I'm not going to ramble for too long.
I have been gone for a bit. A rather long time actually. I have moved in with my boyfriend in the last 6 months which makes it hard to get on here. I'm constantly sneaking and reading everyones journal entries trying to get some sort of normalcy back. When I'm here with you guys I tend to stay on track. I'm always looking over my shoulder though. It is making me incredibly paranoid lol.......sad......
I'm not doing great with my weight lose. Im getting totally off track. I have had maybe 6 family dinners recently (b-days), NOT including all the X-Mas ones. I don't need to see my family that often. My grandparents have made a few comments here and there, under their breath. It is soooo annoying. "You need to eat more, you're too skinny" HUH... are they on crack??? I understand that we all think we are fat here or just not skinny but I really am not that skinny. In fact I am in the normal range for my height. It pisses me off. I could easily lose 10 more pounds and look fine. In fact that's what I plan on doing. What are they going to say then?? I was literaly up until 5am thinking about this stupid shit. I'm even more self conscious now then I was before. I'm not happy with my weight and I definitely want NEED to lose this weight fast but I also feel like everyone is always staring...ahhhhhhhh. What would be something one would say to a retarded comment of that sort?? I don't want to come off defensive, I find that that might sound like I'm hiding something.
Ok Ok I'm done for now. I guess I shouldn't have said I wasn't going to ramble. I have a lot more to talk about, later I guess.
Later Girls............