i feel like everything that's been going so great in my life,
has completely fallen apart. i'm absolutly miserable. and
most if it is due to the 2 most important people in my life.
i kinda feel like everything has just crumbled to pieces. i
feel lost, i don't know what to think, what to feel, what i
should say. i'm just at a loss. how can you say i wasn't
being honest? i was honest with you from the begining...and
you said you would never; you're not that kind of person.
i've honestly been trying to better myself as a person, to
accept people for who they are and the decisions that they
make. i feel like my friendship has been taken advantage of.
i feel like i've honestly given my all. and at this point i
wish i had gotten nothing in return, but instead i had to be
given this bullshit.
and as for you, you'll never read this, but you have become
someone that i would have never been friends with had we met
at this point in our lives. i have wasted way too much time
even bothering with you. it is clear to me now that you care
only about yourself, how you can have fun, and how your life
can be better...never about the people you hurt in the
process.
transmit this: you have officially ruined anything good i had in my life, i hope you are happy.
[nate]: Way to guilt someone into being your friend
transmit this: you're a fucking selfish prick. you care about no ones feelings but your own. as long as nate is happy, as long as nate gets what he wants, as long as you're always right. everything is ok, right?
transmit this: and actually...i told her i wanted her to be with you
transmit this: but that i could not be her friend.
transmit this: so get your story straight. NONE of this is in any way my fault. except it you piece of shit. I DID NOTHING at all to deserve any of this.
[nate]: The world doesn't revolve around you.
transmit this: but it does around nate.
[nate]: Oh and howso?
transmit this: i can't even talk to you, you're pathetic. you see nothing wrong in your actions. you see nothing wrong in your behavior. you're mad at me?! what the fuck is that. i hope the two of you are happy together. but i'm done letting YOU ruin MY life. have a good one.
[nate]: No apostrophes or you won't get your point across!
transmit this: i cant even talk to you, youre pathetic. you see nothing wrong in your actions. you see nothing wrong in your behavior. youre mad at me?! what the fuck is that. i hope the two of you are happy together. but i'm done letting YOU ruin MY life. have a good one.
[nate]: You have no idea how i feel, so don't tell me how i feel or what goes through my head.
Auto response from transmit this: i don't know anymore.
transmit this: oh yea nate?
[nate]: Oh yea tasha
transmit this: because i am pretty sure you could give TWO FUCKNIG SHITS about me, as long as you get what you want. which is fine, but it would have been nice to know ahead of time
transmit this: and you know what...we can keep fighting, but this battle isnt gonig anywhere because you are always right. i have no reason to be upset, i have no reason to even care....right? well, you got what you wanted. you can have *******, and i wont be around anymore...so life is simple for you.
[nate]: quit putting words in my fucking mouth. I've never thought that or said that.
transmit this: i hope youre happy and i hope you stay happy....but for the first time in my life, i dont have anything to say to you.
transmit this: good bye.
[nate]: Sweet.
i wish i could feel a different way, i wish i could not care.
i wish this had never happened. i wish a lot of things. i feel
so guilty, miserable, nervous, etc. this has definetly ruined
everything. and somehow...i feel like it's my fault. but it can't
be, it can't be my fault at all. i did nothing. so why do i feel
like such shit.
ughhhhh. i think i may quit my job, maybe move back in with my
parents? i'm not sure. but i know i defiently can't handle living
by myself anymore. i thought it got lonely before? ha...it's only
going to get worse.
well, when life throws you lemons, make lemonade...right?