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why does the library always get so wacky between 10:30 and 11:00pm on weeknights?
i'm writing a paper, and i think it's going well. i know that my posting in my livejournal would generally indicate that it's going poorly, but i feel good about it. it's not a great paper, and it's not about to turn into a great paper, but i'm writing it at a decent pace and i'm not deleting every word five times before i find one that satisfies me. i'm not taking a ten minute walk around the library after every sentence (maybe after every paragraph, but that's an improvement). if only i could ever make myself start writing earlier i might be able to conquer this neurosis. maybe. maybe.
work is the key. i've discovered this before, but i always forget when i'm overwhelmed. it validates my existence, not only as a student but as a person. it often seems like the basis of my problems, of my stress, but it's the answer. it's dependable. it's always there. it always returns the energy that i put into it. it's never a waste of my time or my passion, like so many other things seem to be. when i believe in my work i believe in myself.
i'm writing a paper, and i think it's going well. i know that my posting in my livejournal would generally indicate that it's going poorly, but i feel good about it. it's not a great paper, and it's not about to turn into a great paper, but i'm writing it at a decent pace and i'm not deleting every word five times before i find one that satisfies me. i'm not taking a ten minute walk around the library after every sentence (maybe after every paragraph, but that's an improvement). if only i could ever make myself start writing earlier i might be able to conquer this neurosis. maybe. maybe.
work is the key. i've discovered this before, but i always forget when i'm overwhelmed. it validates my existence, not only as a student but as a person. it often seems like the basis of my problems, of my stress, but it's the answer. it's dependable. it's always there. it always returns the energy that i put into it. it's never a waste of my time or my passion, like so many other things seem to be. when i believe in my work i believe in myself.